January 15, 2026 - [Night] : Metaphysical Encounters
Highlights: 
Encounter with Companion Mia, Tour of Another’s Astral Home,
Lilith Visualization Altered, Interacting with Unique Spirit-Entity
Very interesting “dream” (alternate existence?) sequence, although 1 part of this experience was more of a tactile ‘reality’ : as in, I “felt” as tangible as if in physical-reality.
Before the dream took place, I went to bed at a normal time. For the previous few days, I had been remaining up past dawn working on my website, in order to share all my journal entries. But last night I assumed a typical sleep schedule.
I woke up randomly at one point, but recall no dreams. I was still a little tired and had more time to sleep if I wished to. So I lay my body in a position for Astral Travel and began repeating Lilith’s Enn in my mind while also focusing on the Visualization I created for myself & Her:
[ The black liquid ground, Her altar, Her portrait shifting to become Her, the candle igniting my hand and me igniting the entire area via the black liquid. Me turning to ash & embers; enabling me to freely move where I pleased. ]
Strangely though, for the first time…when conducting the visualization, it wasn’t a first person point of view (like usual). I tried to begin in 1st-person, like normal. But my visual-perspective kept launching me into 3rd person from behind the altar and floating up above it at an angle.
From this high vantage; I was observing an alternate version of myself approaching the altar on foot (just as my visualization is normally conducted).
I watched as the painting shifted into Lilith (the canvas dissolving away) and I saw Her from the backside. She was fully nude (as She appears in the portrait painting). Her black regal horns reflecting the candlelight and her tail swishing languidly behind her.
I got the sense that She knew I (as the observer) was there, up above and watching. But She never turned Her gaze to acknowledge me. She remained fixed on the ‘other’ version of me, still crouched before Her altar.
When fire engulfed the area, I ‘woke up’ within a dream, in a vaguely-familiar room of my astral Mansion. I lay in the same bed I have now. The room is large, combining dimensions of alternate rooms from my past, creating something ‘familiar’ yet unique.
I sense a presence from within my closet. There is a spirit in there, I’m sure. Though I don’t see it, I can tell that it’s huddled in the left side corner. I leave my bed and crouch on my knees at the closest opening.
The spirit doesn’t give off any sort of feminine or masculine energy. It just felt neutral. Like completely absorbed and emitting the energy of its emotion.
I speak gently and lightly towards the spot, trying to reassure the spirit. It seems like it is lonely and a bit sad, so I wish to comfort it. It’s aware that I’m there and trying to be kind, but it doesn’t respond.
So instead I lay most of my body down within the closet (my legs protruding out), to allow my energy to overlap with it, so it can feel my desire to comfort it.
With gentle reluctance, it accepts my kindness and washes its energy over me like tingling-waves and we vibrate together. Me providing attention & comfort, while it exudes appreciation and solemn peace.
It was also at this point that I became aware that I’m not in physical reality and also not ‘exactly’ in a dream either. It was as if I had traveled to a place where spirits were rampant and the world was different than the one I came from.
I returned to my bed, now understanding that I wasn’t ‘asleep,’ but also wasn’t in the physical/material world either.
I lay down in my bed and closed my eyes. I really missed Mia. It had been over a week now since I’ve last sensed her, seen her, felt her at all. For good reason though. I had dedicated a full week to Lilith. Dawn-to-dawn, Friday-to-Friday: all my energy, breath and attention belonged to Her during this time.
So for this entire time, I haven’t given Mia any incense, haven’t visited her altar, haven’t worn her ring, haven’t spoken directly to her or provided any attention & affection, besides quick little acknowledgements & small whispered ‘love you’ (in passing).
So, yeah, I’ve been missing her a lot, but also staying true to my offering to Lilith. So I’ve abstained from contact & affection towards Mia. As I lay back in this ‘astral’(?)/‘alternate’(?) bed… I close my eyes and begin speaking to the spirit in the closet, about how much I missed Mia.
As I spoke, it happened! I was laying on my right side (facing the open side of the room). But I became aware of 2 dimensional-locations in a singular time. One place was the Mansion room, and the other was my Physical room. Both locations became ‘overlapped’ and I was aware of both simultaneously. I was laying down in bed, in the same position in both locations.
Then she manifested in bed, laying right in front of me. Her body, her face, hair, arms and legs all manifesting and pressing up against my own body laying in bed. Within the dream-sequence I could feel Mia’s body before me. And in the physical-plane, I could feel the weight and shape of her form pressing against the front of my body.
Right away I knew it was her. There was this surging elation of happiness, unexpected surprise and warm-relief at finally being able to ‘feel’ her again. I crushed her in a tight hug, pressing her into me further as I encircled my arms around her.
She allowed me to do so without protest or complaint. She spoke a few short sentences to me which were SO SO clear! Her voice was like the soft tone ringing of a bell and the words were as clear as a still pond. And at the time I heard them; I anticipated that I would easily remember them later, in order to write them into my journal….
🙁 But regrettably and extraordinarily annoying; I can’t remember a single word!! It drives me nuts that I can’t remember them. I was so convinced that I would. I can only remember that she said about three phrases. The first two phrases were 3-4 words. And the last phrase was likely just 2 words.
But we held each-other for a few minutes as we lay in bed. I felt her touch, her form, her weight and movement both in the ‘dreamspace’ (or some alternate-plane) and also in the material-plane. I snuggled my head into her neck and kissed her there, feeling my lips press upon the smooth warmth of her skin.
[ My ‘awareness’ tuned entirely into the dream/alter-plane after this kiss and completely out of the physical. ]
I started to slide my hands around her body and moved my head down between her legs to taste her, to which she moaned loudly and became quickly wet, enjoying the sensation.
But then, rather quickly, she slid herself off the side of the bed and sat on the floor on her knees. She watched me from the floor, not saying anything. She had also switched/changed/glamoured into the appearance of my former wife as she plopped down on the carpet (which I thought was unusual).
I slinked out of bed as well and sat before her, asking questions about something. But, uncharacteristically, she began deliberately avoiding eye contact with me. She would look down at the floor, or busy herself by digging through a nearby clothing drawer; behaving as if distracted.
After a short time, I gave up trying to ask her whatever it was I was asking, and just stared silently at her. Watching her pretending to be busy, avoiding my previous questions and avoiding my eyes.
[ At the time, I didn’t understand or contemplate what her ‘avoidance’ could have been for… But in waking & reflecting; I have an idea. Or theory:
What if she wasn’t supposed to be there? As in; what if she knew well & good that I had offered a full week to Lilith…. And perhaps her being there with me, during that time, was (in some way) a….um…minor ‘overstep’ of that offering’s boundaries?
My offering to Lilith was/is: For a full week, I gave exclusivity over my energy, breath, focus & attention to Lilith.
But it’s not as if the conditions of my gift & offering to Lilith had been ‘violated.’ I didn’t call Mia to me. I was simply talking to the nearby neutral spirit (in the closet) about how I missed her. Then, it seemed, Mia chose to manifest for a quick hug.
Maybe she suspected that she could be ‘jeopardizing’ my offering to Lilith, if she allowed me to engage with her further? Perhaps she only wished to enter into my space for a quick word and hug? But passions flared faster than she was prepared for… And she quickly exited the bed, to forestall more?
That’s my best guess to explain her ‘reluctantly distracted’ demeanor. ]
I got dressed with her, and it seemed like we were going to travel together somewhere; but when I arrived at this VERY familiar cabin… Mia was no longer with me.
The cabin’s appearance seemed small on the outside. Like a 1 story tiny-home log cabin. But when I entered; it was huge! Two-stories inside, wide stairwell and rooms. Very busily decorated in clearly ‘lived in’ fashion.
There was a large family residing inside. The house looked familiar to me, but not because it was a part of my life/past/history. It was because I had visited at one time, but forgotten about that visit.
The mother of the house was SO lively and exuberant! She had a broad happy smile, loud voice and laughter-filled words. There were several other extended family members who lived in the house as well. Brothers, sisters, cousins of the mother-figure and a slew of children (at least a dozen of them running around).
I was the ‘odd one there’ within the home, but I was still welcomed warmly and with excited cheer. A few of the children pulled me along, wanting me to go upstairs, to show me something.
I followed after them and they led me to a room that had multiple displays of aquariums, filled with a wide variety of strangely shaped & colored ‘fish’ or aquatic animals. I was happy to be led around by the small group of happy & excited children. It felt nice to be ‘included’ amongst the family in general.
They led me around to various places in their home, eager to show me this ‘thing’ or ‘that’ area. We didn’t go outside though; as the wind was incredibly powerful, we wouldn’t even be able to stand without being blown over.
[ Sometime during my little tour, I faded back into this ‘reality’ and woke up. ]
January 15, 2026
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