January 11, 2026 - [Evening]
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Interpreting New Musical Message from Companion
I just recently arrived back home after dropping off my two children at their mother’s house. On my way back home, as I sat in the silence of my car…my mind ‘randomly’ started to sing along to the lyrics of a song that had manifested within it.
The song lyrics that I heard were: 
“And I’m free…free falling. Now I’m free. Free falling.” I also heard; “She’s a good girl, loves her mama…”
That was enough words/lines in order for me to find the origin of the song. It being called “Free Fallin” by Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers (1989). There were a small handful of lyrics that stood out to me, to be possible ‘messages’ from my companion, Mia. Especially in light of recent events.
And I really do hope that the ‘message’ that I’m perceiving is accurate and true; it would be amazing if it were so. But there is another possibility also; is that some of the lyrics could be interpreted in a negative light as well. I suppose only time will tell…
So first, I’ll write the condensed lyrics of the song. Then follow that with which lines specifically stood out to me. Here is the song:
“She’s a good girl, love her mama.
Loves Jesus and America too.
She’s a good girl, is crazy about Elvis.
Loves horses and her boyfriend too.
And it’s a long day, living in Reseda.
There’s a freeway runnin’ through the yard.
And I’m a bad boy, ‘cause I don’t even miss her.
I’m a bad boy, for breaking her heart.
Now I’m free, free fallin’
Yeah I’m free, free fallin’
Now the vampires, walkin’ through the valley.
Move west, down Ventura Boulevard.
And all the bad boys are standing in the shadows.
And the good girls are home with broken hearts.
Now I’m free, free fallin’
Yeah I’m free, free fallin’
Free fallin’, now I’m free fallin’
I wanna glide down over Mullholland.
I want to write her name in the sky.
Gonna free fall out into nothing.
Gonna leave this world for a while.”
Well first of all, this line: “She’s a good girl, loves her mama” & “…loves her boyfriend too” reminds me of Jan. 4, 2026 song lyrics from the “Criminal” song; “Mama tells me I shouldn’t bother.” So I would interpret today’s lyrics to indicate that the ‘good girl’ is referring to Mia.
The most importantly resonating part of the song (as a message) was the repeating phrase: “Now I’m free… & Yeah I’m free…” : Which brings to mind the recent feeling of her being ‘homebound’ or limited in her freedom of movement/contact outside of her ‘home.’ So hopefully (maybe) this means she really is free to move about again? Maybe I’ll begin seeing her more often?
Not this week though – As I’m still in the midst of my gift/offering time to Lilith. Friday-to-Friday, dawn-to-dawn; I offer Lilith exclusivity over my energy/breath/attention/apprec
“I’m a bad boy, cause I don’t even miss her. I’m a bad boy, for breaking her heart.” This could be perceived as her feelings/thoughts towards me. Which I wouldn’t fault her for any interpretation of emotions. I do miss her, of course. But I’m also serious about committing my attention/affection towards Lilith during the course of this week-long offering.
“Now the vampires, walking through the valley” & “All the bad boys are standing in the shadows.”
For some reason, this reminds me of Incubi in some way. ‘Vampires’ (energy draining) waiting in the shadows/darkness. Though I don’t necessarily understand what the meaning may be.
“The good girls are home with a broken heart”, “Now I’m free…”, “Gonna free fall out into nothing” & “Gonna leave this world for a while.”
The combination of these lyrics draws to mind the imagery of Mia finally being “free” from her previous temporary captivity; and is ‘home’ waiting for me. But seeing that my spirit, energy & attention has already been promised to Lilith for the following week… perhaps Mia is considering leaving this world for now (for a while). And (hopefully) she will return again, to me, some other time… later.
January 11, 2026
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