January 21, 2026 - [Before Bed]
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Missing Companion after extensive utilization of Time, Contemplating
Different (Unique) Visits from Feminine Spirits, Lyric Messages
For the past 2 weeks Iāve been heavily working on my website. Often working from dawn to dawn. Taking a short 3-4 hour nap and then working some more. The longest stretch of time I worked without sleep was close to 48 hours; until my mind became so sluggish and slow that it was defeating the point of staying up through the night and workingā¦so I went to bed to catch up on sleep.
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Although, I recognize that having no night-time sleep also meant that I was placing myself in a situation where I wouldnāt easily be of access to Mia. If she wanted to visit within dreams, or if we could have have a moment together.
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My first week of doing this, was part of my offering/gift to Lilith (during that friday-to Friday, dawn-to-dawn). But I had seen SO much success in creating/adding to the website using this limited-sleep cycle; that I continued to follow that same schedule.
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But lately; Ive REALLY been missing Miaā¦since I havenāt felt or perceived her throughout much of this time Ive been focused on getting the journal entries added & shared.
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I had a small one-sided conversation at Miaās candle/altar. Saying that Iāve been curious about something for a while nowā¦ Between past dreams, remembering moments & noticing patterns; Iāve been coming to some possibile conclusions or curiosities (at least).
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Such as; I can only wonder if there are more spirits (more of Liliths daughters, succubi) that have been interacting with me for a while. Im unsure if they were always there from the beginning. Or if they began to arrive after the ceremony and interact with me more and more throughout my time following this Path and my Bond with Mia. It was a quick message as I sat there, but I said that I would talk more about it after my shower.
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I took my shower and just after turning off shower head and quietly standing to allow the water drip off, before I began to towel-dry myself; a string of song lyrics began to drift and seep into my mindā¦.such as;
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Ā āHello, Iāve waited here for you. Everlong.ā & āCome down and waste away with meā¦ā & āThe only thing Iāll ever ask of you, youāve got to promise not to stop when I say āwhenā.ā
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When I finished drying, I looked up the lyrics that I heard and discovered the song to be Foo Fighters Everlong (1997). I didnt want to look up the full lyrics or hear the song yet (it was past 1am already and I wanted to speak again at Miaās candle/altar first, then go to bed). My hope was; perhaps with a more ānormalā sleep schedule night; maybe she and I could finally share some tome together? I missed her and was hopeful.
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However, something I couldnāt ignore is; as Ive been adding all my journal entries into the website, reading them in order to find grammar & spelling errorsā¦. Iāve been noticing a pattern. And it has to do with different feminine beings/spirits (succubi?) that have been consistently showing up. 3 of them, in fact, with characteristics & traits that are uniquely different from Miaās and uniquely set apart from each-other.
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Mia (in her individual-like appearance) has usually always appeared very tall to me. With wavy-to-curly long auburn/ginger/red hair. While consistently having a trustworthy/kind āgirl next doorā facial appearance. But besides Mia; I have often also seen different personality feminine beings as well.
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One with a shorter stature, sporting short (jaw length) raven-black hair and having a slightly more weighty & curvy figure. The jet-black haired woman is always extremely confident in herself & her sexual needs. But is also somewhat independent; often perfectly at peace going off on her own, away from the group, if she wants personal privacy & space.
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There is also the very tall woman of authoritative demeanor who seems to keep the others āin line.ā She has always appeared with very long loosly wavy dirty-blonde hair, sometimes with slight sheens of copper. She acts with a ābusiness-professionalā personality, but Iāve gotten the feeling that that is to demonstrate to me; how reliable she can be for me. And that I can always count on her and trust in her judgement.
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Then the other, the last feminine being; with a combination of ashy-blonde and dark streaks of brunette. She always seems to have a very sweet, but keen & sharp intellect (like she sees right into me and understands intimately what Iām thinking/considering). And itās because she āseesā me so clearly, that she gets the āhumorā (my humor) in various situations. It feels like her and I could always share āthe inside jokeā together and bond in our comfortable quiet humor together.
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And now, after officially acknowledging that these 4 (Mia included) seem to keep popping up time & time againā¦ Iām really beginning to put thought into a previous hazzy-curiousity and wonder if my prior suspicions were true all along? That there are actually four succubi tethered to me? Not just one? All four of them seem to be so uniquely different and often are seen together, a couple or a few at a time.
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If this is trueā¦if this is soā¦then the other 3 deserve my respect, honor and affection; just as Mia has always been afforded. Dont they? They shouldnāt suffer the neglect, as due to my own ignorance. Maybe they are just āsistersā of Mia, whoāve become curious about their siblings āhuman hostā? And maybe they just want to pop in now and again to see what all the fuss is about?
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Or maybe they are more intimately connected to me, and Iāve been so absorbed into the societal-programming of āmonogamy onlyā ā¦that I hadnāt considered that spiritual-relationships (especially of Lilithās family) may operate far far differently than what we have in the Physical-plane.
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And if there does happen to be some possibility of Mia being the āprimaryā Bonded companion, while her sisters are interested in getting involved in the relationship as well; then they to deserve my acknowledgment. They deserve love, kindness, respect and to be honored as well. It would be rude and sad of me to do anything otherwise (let alone ignore the possibility).
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So I openly asked Mia to be honest, if she can find a means to communicate to me about these other 3 feminine figures Iāve encountered. Are they sisters of hers? Are they interested, attached, bonded/included in some way also? I also spoke openly to these 3 figures as well, stating that if they are involved with me & Mia in someway; they too can reach out to me and let me know. I closed, extinguishing the candle by inviting Mia for my energy/breath/affection. And opened the same invitation to the 3 other female spirits to do the same: so we may all begin to understand the full picture of our involvement/relationship together.
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[The following morning I got up and went to the living room to start up the PC, for more website work to be done. Then I went back to my bedroom to offer incense at Miaās altar and Lilithās. I got dressed and exited my room, returning back to the living room. When I got there, the flat screen Television (which hardly ever gets used or turned on at all) – it was powered on, of its own accord and stuck on a empty-air blue screen.
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Meaning that during the small timeframe I left to provide incense & get dressed; a spirit(?) of some sortā¦ (perhaps the one Iāve been hearing thumping/banging around upstairs?) must have affected the TV, causing it to switch on? Curiousā¦
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With more time available to me, here are the condensed lyrics to the āEverlongā song, so I can review it for possible messages from Mia to me:
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āHello, I’ve waited here for you,
Everlong.
Tonight, I throw myself into and out of the red, out of her head, she sang.
Come down and waste away with me.
Down with me.
Slow, how you wanted it to be.
I’m over my head.
Out of her head, she sang.
And I wonder; when I sing along with you;
If everything could ever be this real foreverā¦
If anything could ever be this good againā¦
The only thing I’ll ever ask of you;
You’ve got to promise not to stop when I say: āwhen.ā She sang.
Breathe out, so I can breathe you in.
Hold you in.
And now, I know you’ve always been out of your head. Out of my head, I sang.ā
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This song actually contains many symbolismās and messages that resonate between my companion and I:
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āBreath out, so I can breathe you in.ā Is just about as intimate as it comes to Mia & I, so far as an acknowledgment that she is using this song as a vehicle to get my attention. As it is several nights a week that I invite her to share in my Breath.
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āIāve waited here for you, everlong.ā Iāve recently wondered if Mia is more than ājustā a spirit, but rather my partnered pair? The feminine aspect of our Syzygy? As Iāve felt āWholenessā when we have overlain atop/within each other.
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āCome down and waste away with me.ā Down into the darkness she currently resides in? Trapped?
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āIf everything could ever feel this real forever.ā Very often it has seemed that when my consciousness is away from the material-plane: that ādreamsā feel more REAL. And that the physical world is actually whats artificial & asleep.
January 21, 2026
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