April 21, 2026 - [Evening]
Highlights: 
Communion/Offerings with Lilith, Scent of Flowers Permeates Bed
I held a large communion time for Lilith. Setting up a folding table flat on the floor in the living room. Decorating it with as many gifts/offerings/colors that represent Her. It has been far too long (as usual) since the last time I dedicated hours to simply honoring Her and being in Her presence (proving hours of my intentional focus).
During this time, I also procured some fresh roses for Her and had the supplies necessary to create a new sigil candle stand. After lighting Her candle, humming her Enn for an appropriate amount of time; I then set to task with her gifts.
I cut and prepared her bouquet of flowers, sized the stems and arranged them in her vase. Taking my time, respectfully with each rose & flower. I then began working on a circular flat wood cutting, and engraving her sigil & name upon it. Keeping everything smooth, symmetrical and elegant. After which I affixed (via wax) Her hand-decorated candle upon it and lit it after Her other had been exhausted.
I sat in still quietness with Her and hours passed in what felt like minutes. I recited Her poems and concluded by expressing my selfish desire to feel Her presence (in any capacity, form or way) that She so chose. But also voiced that my wish was indeed selfish, given ALL the many visits and time She had already invested into me prior.
She has SO many other children to attend to on a continuous basis. So I know & acknowledge that my request was selfish. But I asked anyway. I missed Her.
I did not expect Her to visit (I never do).
She came anyway! In the most subtly sweet and simple way possible (using a method that She has done in the past under such circumstances).
As I slept in bed, late into the night, I was awoken by nothing at all (so far as I can remember). However, I did not open my eyes. I simply mentally acknowledged that I was randomly awake and should just get back to sleep.
But as I began to settle my mind to sleep once more, I was overcome with the sweet aromatic fragrance of flowers that permeated the air all around my bed! The scent was everywhere. It reminded me of being outside on a spring day, walking through a grove of wildflowers. I felt warm and my senses were filled with the scent of flowers everywhere.
I couldn’t help but to physically smile in that moment as I lay in my bed, because I knew who it was. My Queen and Mother had visited me in a gentle, serene way. Just in passing, just for a moment, but a visit nonetheless.
I acknowledged Her, Lilith. And thanked Her with a whisper of appreciation. And slowly, without sound or words or touch; the scent of flowers drifted away. Fading little by little, until the aroma was gone entirely. Then my mind settled and I fell back asleep.
April 21, 2026
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