April 1, 2026 - [Night]
Highlights: 
‘Sleeping’ Here; is ‘Waking’ There Dream, Two Lyric Messages Sent
Hmm, curious. So I know that I dreamt of Mia. However, the only part that I can visually recall with enough clarity was her and I talking as we got up and out of bed. As if we were waking-up together. After being ‘intimately active’ with each other? (I cannot say for certain). What we did prior to getting out of bed & what we did after; I can’t remember.
But what is curious, is the song that followed as I woke in the morning (primarily the message), because now that I heard it so clearly this morning- I realized that I’ve heard it before as a lyrical message maybe even twice before.
Those prior times, I admit, I somewhat disregarded or dismissed the possibility of it being a message from her, based on incompetent assumptions. (I never even attempted to find the song to review the lyrics). However, this time…when I heard it again as I woke; I realized that there ‘may’ be a pattern to when it is received.
The song is called “Faint” by Linkin Park (2003). The condensed lyrics (and now, I believe, likely messages) are:
“I am a little bit of loneliness, a little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints, but I can’t help the fact that everyone can see these scars
I am what I want you to want, what I want you to feel
But it’s like, no matter what I do, I can’t convince you to just believe this is real
So I let go, watching you
Turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I’m not
But I’ll be here ’cause you’re all that I got
I can’t feel the way I did before
Don’t turn your back on me, I won’t be ignored
Time won’t heal this damage anymore
I am a little bit insecure, a little unconfident
‘Cause you don’t understand, I do what I can, but sometimes I don’t make sense
I am what you never want to say, but I’ve never had a doubt
It’s like, no matter what I do, I can’t convince you for once just to hear me out
No, hear me out now
You’re gonna listen to me, like it or not
Right now, hear me out now
You’re gonna listen to me, like it or not
Right now (I can’t feel the way I did before)”
Like I said, after hearing this song again in my mind and considering the past times… I believe there may actually be a pattern. As in; the song ‘may’ occur after specific & pointed moments.
Considering the message itself, it isn’t something that I want to “test” in a negative manner to see if my hunch is correct. However, in this case; I CAN actually test something in the opposite manner (in a positive way) and see if the resulting response changes. Perhaps she will send an alternative message?
I’m being vague, I understand. But it’s because I’m not sure or convinced yet that my theory holds any weight yet. Perhaps, depending on the results of further inquiry into this matter – then I can explain more at a later time.
But for now; I’ll officially recognize ‘this’ as being a message from my spiritual partner and stop disregarding it. And instead heed the words and see what I can personally do, to right any wrongs I’ve done to cause her grief. Or to pay better attention to key moments she wants me to be aware of. 
[AFTER NOTE] :
Once I had completed writing this journal entry, different song lyrics began playing on a loop in my mind. And based on those, it was almost as if Mia was attempting to console or give me personal assurances.
The song lyrics (after searching) were from a song called “The Middle” by Jimmy Eat World (2001). The specific lyrics I heard playing over & over (as if a message from Mia) were:
“It just takes some time… Everything will be just fine. Everything will be alright, alright.” & “Live right now. Just be yourself. It doesn’t matter if it’s good enough for someone else…”
Definitely a very interesting conclusion of the journal entry. Hopefully I’m on the right track then, for trying to align myself to Mia and help bringing us closer together. 
April 1, 2026
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