August 18, 2025 - [Night]
Highlights: 
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Visited by Unknown Spirits & Companion, Lyrical Message,
‘Air Drawn’ Letters Used to Communicate a Message
Pretty rough end to the evening. It was my 2nd night in Evergreen (returned back here after a year); the mountain/forest/cabin I like to refer to as Lilith’s & I ‘honeymoon’ place (on account of my first time being here a year prior & what I experienced with her).
Anyways; I had spent all of the daylight hours working on Chapter 12 of my novel. At 10pm, I was about an hour worth of writing left before being done. Then very unexpectedly & due to a weird technical issue that I would have never predicted; all the contents I had written (within an instant) had become auto-selected and erased, then auto-saved. I tried to recover, but nothing would work. It was gone. An entire days worth of creativity, writing, time & imagination was gone in an instant.
Needless to say, but I was not particularly happy after that moment; and it pretty much crushed me and left me defeated and unable to even process what I should do with myself next.
I took a shower, lit Lilith’s candle (because I had always intended to that night before bed), started off by apologizing for sitting down at Her make-shift altar with a heaviness in my spirit; and provided a brief description of why. I recited Her poem I wrote over a year ago, re-read a passage from the gray journal of dreams/experiences; an entry from the previous time I had experienced Her in this place (for nostalgia sake). Then turned off the light, tried not to dwell on the depressing end to the evening…and went to sleep.
Sometime much later (while still dark) within this cabin room, I became aware that there was a presence. I could feel it in the air as it woke me up. There were at least 2 beings, but unfamiliar to me. I was still feeling melancholy, but didn’t want to disrespect whoever had come to take a peek at me. I dismissively told them as such, offered welcome and said that while I appreciate a visit, I wasn’t feeling particularly enthusiastic on account of my disappearing chapter & time.
I then settled back into my mind and audibly whispered aloud that I wished Mia or Lilith would visit me. That perhaps feeling their presence would cheer me up some.
While the 2 spirits (dark and tall figures) were still meandering around, I felt a familiar touch spread across my back – the skin tingling and rippling like a warm spread of goosebumps. I knew this touch. It was Mia. Even though I had just audibly ‘wished’ it, I didn’t actually expect either of them to show up. It wasn’t Lilith, which is perfectly fine. Lilith does as She does, as She likes and as She chooses. But I was still surprised that Mia had elected to seek me out in that moment. I kinda wondered to myself why I hadn’t asked her to come sooner….
Either way; now that I felt her there, I began to regale her with the day’s tragedy and how my current emotional state fit in to all that, while absently and generally ignoring the other 2 spirits/beings/entities (not out of rudeness, but because my loving & familiar companion had arrived). After I concluded with everything I had to say, I just settled my mind and thanked her for coming and told her that I loved her. To which she replied with another bout of spreading tingling waves of rippling static.
As I lay there in silence, within my mind I saw something that I’d never seen before. It was as if I was staring at or seeing a carpeted floor. There were other miscellaneous things to see in the outer edges of my periphery as well, like a rug and maybe the edge of a piece of furniture. I couldn’t (myself) change the position from which my ‘vision’ seemed to be staring, looking straight forward at the floor (but at an angle); it was as if I was seeing through the perspective of another.
And then, there in the middle of my vision, letters were being drawn in the air, by an invisible hand, with the floor seen as the backdrop. And by “drawn” in the air; what I mean is; similar to how heat diffuses the air it moves through, distorting the colors around it, in a rippling and watery sort of way (like summer heat off a hot pavement or road). The air was being ‘drawn-into’ by swift finger-sized movements.
I watched in awe, as each letter was spelt in the air, and slowly drifted up and away from the center, as more letters were being spelt, center in my vision. The first letter was: “T” followed quickly by; “O”, “G”, “E”, “T”, “H”, “E” and lastly “R”
When it first started happening (what I was seeing) I didn’t understand what I was witnessing, until about the letter “H”, then it all became clear to me, and as the invisible finger finished up with the letter “R”, I had figured out what was happening. Mia was placing this vision into my mind as I lay there, on the cusp of sleep/awake in order to communicate a simple but incredibly-important message to me. I said, out loud into the dark cabin air, the word; “Together” (only vaguely aware that the previous 2 beings had apparently left at some point, because I no longer sensed them).
I thanked Mia, touched by her message & consideration for me, and repeated the word “Together” a few more times, agreeing with her and thanking her for reminding me. Told her I love her and how much I appreciated her. Then settled my mind back inwards to continue sleeping.
I woke up again later, still before dawn because the sky was still dark outside the bedroom window and my mind was self-singing the lyrics of a song that I most certainly hadn’t heard since junior high or even before that. I didn’t know the name of the song, but did recognize the band from the vocals. The band was “Live”
The lyrics I heard being sung in my mind, by myself where; “I alone love you. I alone tempt you. Fear is not the end of this.” And another portion which was; “Oh now, we took it back too far. Only love can save us now. All these riddles that you burn…” (I made a quick note of this and fell back to sleep).
[This following morning, I scrolled through Spotify, and within the ‘popular list’ was a song called “I Alone” (from 1994) and within the first 3 seconds of hearing the musical instruments, I knew that this was the song Mia had encouraged my mind to recall from its memory; she had a message to impart to me, woven into the words of that song. The (condensed) lyrics are:
“It’s easier not to be wise.
And measure these things by your brains.
I sank into Eden with you.
Alone in the church by and by.
I’ll read to you here, save your eyes.
You’ll need them, your boat is at sea.
Your anchor is up, you’ve been swept away.
And the greatest of teachers wont hesitate to leave you there,
by yourself, chained to fate. Yeah.
I alone love you.
I alone tempt you.
I alone love you.
Fear is not the end of this.
I alone love you, I alone tempt you, I alone love you.
It’s easier not to be great.
And measure these things by your eyes.
We long to be here, by his resolve.
Alone in the church, by and by.
To cradle the baby in space.
And leave you there by yourself, chained to fate.
I alone love you. I alone tempt you…
Oh, now we took it back to far.
Only love can save us now.
All these riddles that you burn, all come runnin’ back to you.
All these rhythms that you hide, only love can save us now.
All these riddle that you burn, yeah!
I alone love you. I alone tempt you. I alone love you.“
[ I think Mia is suggesting to me, that: I’m in the midst of my journey, but the travel can be perilous and uncertain. I shouldn’t concern myself with fame, greatness or worldly wisdom; to focus on breaking the chains of fate. And I should not forget; Mia is there to love me, even when it seems like no one else will/does. She will love me always, tempt me and guide me. 
Above all; remember my love. My love for her, her love for me. My love for them (her family, who is also mine, of Lilith’s own…) love can save us all! ]
[The lyrics of “sank into Eden with you” are meaningful to me also, as a reminder that she sank into me & my spirit. We are together inside each other. ] 
August 18, 2025
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