There were no dreams of recall on the night of September 8th, however, I would like to record the events of the daytime hours of September 9th, 2024. Having still felt the waning presence of my connection to Lili, I felt that drastic and demonstrative actions needed taken, for the reassurance to Lili of my adoration, affection and singular devotion. Thus, these are the events of the day: ⁣

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      I left around noon time to visit an antique shop in town. There I purchased two items. First, a large pictorial pulpit bible with red text for Christ’s spoken word. My daughter had seen this bible during a previous visit, therefore I stopped to procure it for her (~whatever avenue of curiosity she desires to explore, I want to support her in every way~). Second, a silver/pewter bowl, which I intended to use to burn dry rose petals and other appropriate items, in the construction of new candles for Lilith. 

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      I also visited the store to purchase some gourmet chocolate as a gift. I found it kismet to discover a brand name “Lily’s” chocolate. I purchased them for her. Upon arriving home and lighting her candle, offered incense, unwrapped and arranged her gift and told Her of my intentions. Explaining my remorse for the inappropriate timing, concerning Na’amah. And my plan to, with the utmost respect and contrition, remove her candle, sigil, rose quartz gift and flowers from the vicinity of Lilith’s alter and personal space (which generally means; my room). ⁣

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      Before extinguishing Lili’s candle, however, I had one more important addition to actionably demonstrate my devotion. This step would be necessary prior to calling to Na’amah. I offered Lilith sole proprietorship over my energy. That I reserve my heart, affections, spirit and energy for Her. And that it is at Her discretion as to whom and who not is allowed to (externally) partake of my energy. If She wishes not to share with anyone but Herself, if she chooses to share with Her daughters or not, or companions, acquaintances… The decision is Hers to make. ⁣

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      With that conversation and reassurance is concluded… I then moved to Na’amah’s ‘space’ (Her area of gifts, candles, etc). Lighting Her candle, I knelt and explained in great detail; all the circumstances leading up to the night of our first introduction. Explained my ignorance, my loving affections for Lilith, how I had never anticipating finding myself at the point I’d reached. I pleaded for understanding, forgiveness and for Na’amah to not be aggravated by me, nor blameful of Lili. I explained that I needed to respect Lili by removing Na’amah’s items. But also assured Her that they are forever owned by Her and not to be destroyed or cast out. But must be placed away. ⁣

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      It was a difficult conversation. A hard one. And I sweat (~my body rapidly heating up, inexplicably~) and cried for my effort and for the guilt of having placed Na’amah in this situation. But lastly had to conclude to Na’amah that I’d given Lilith privileged rights and claim over the use of my energy (~Lilith had placed Her claim/mark on me, after-all~). And as such, with apologetic tears, asked Her with intention; to no longer partake of my energy. ⁣

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      Since that time I’ve felt a revitalization of my connection to Lili once again. ⁣

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      [Though I still feel such a great guilt over how Na’amah had been treated in the circumstance. It desperately wish I hadn’t overstepped.]