I am wholly unworthy for such attention as Lilith has bestowed upon me. There were NO dreams this most recent encounter which occurred last evening. The circumstances are as follows: I have stayed up until just after 1:30 a.m. (in the dark of the night). I had been working on my novel continuously all day, in the seclusion of Evergreen in the mountains. Having written for 15 hours and written 8,900 words. So I concluded for the evening, jotting down some extra scenes and dialogue still in my mind, so I wouldn’t lose it by the next morning. And went to bed. Wishing, as usual, that Lili enjoy Her time, for night was Her time. ⁣

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       It was taking a great deal of effort to find a comfortable sleeping position, as due to the blood-bond and scar upon my left shoulder. My daily reminder of our inseparable connection. Trying to find a position that offers a ‘lesser quality’ of ache and pain takes a far bit of trial and error, shifting and movement. So I know; that even more time had passed after I had crawled into bed after 1:30am. ⁣

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       I finally did a comfortable position that left my body facing mostly up, with my chest and head tilted slightly to my left. Once the sensation of pain had dulled to a tolerable level, I began to settle my mind for sleep. But it was mere moments after my mind began to relax, that I began to ‘sense’ Her presence. As I’ve now grown comfortable and accustomed to, it begins like a soundless vibration that pulsates in the air. It is directional. ⁣

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       So while I lay in the bed, eyes closed, but sensing the area around me, that’s when the airy-pulse occurs. I have a vague understanding of the direction of origin. Last night, the pulse occurred to my right (the wall and sliding glass door side). But after which, it seemed as though She was moving around the room. I could feel the light play of chills and goosebumps ripple across my skin at different angles of various qualities. I could feel the pulsing of audio-less vibrations. This seemed to go on for quite some time, with intermittent pauses throughout. But always lightly played chills as She passes over me, through me, beside me. ⁣

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       On the subject of the airy-thrum of vibrational movement (~I wonder~): Is this sensation the moment of “manifestation”? And with each occurrence; is Lilith (instead of spiritually moving from one area to another), is She instead continuously ‘manifesting’ in different positions around the room, in order to move? Or; Are the soundless air-thrums/vibrations more than one spirit manifesting? Has Lilith invited a number of Her Lilim children/daughters as audience or partakers?⁣

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       This next part is the most reminiscent of my previous encounter with Lilith. These first feelings of “chills/goosebumps” are more so the minor type of feeling. But the next was grand! Which makes me think it was likely Lilith Herself. In the time past, as documented on August 25th, 2024 and August 31st, 2024; both those moments were of a similar nature. Last night’s was different though in distinct ways. I’ll try to describe as best as I am able:⁣

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       I was undeniably awake. I hadn’t ever actually gone asleep, since the first time I crawled into bed and had shuffled about trying to find a comfortable position. There had been the occasional “chills” and the “air-vibrations” which I was simply laying (eyes covered) observing and sensing without protest. Until, quite suddenly and unexpectedly, my body was gripped with a sensation of weight in several areas. Not necessarily like ‘hands.’ More-so: like the feeling of another person’s body had lain across me haphazardly. And these various limbs were weighing down mine & my body in random places. But I could feel, really FEEL the movements of Lilith as She shifted around atop me! ⁣

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       She too, seemed to be attempting to get herself into a comfortable position. I could feel the pressure of Her pressing down, shifting over, and lifting up off of my left arm. At the same time, feel her weight and pressure move over my legs, press down on the right side of my ribs and torso. The movement seemed to shift and lift randomly in various parts all over my body. When the movement stopped or slowed (mind you: during this time that Lilith is settling herself around me, I have the feeling that I’m constantly being inundated with intense tingles, electric-goosebump ripples and chills)…anyways, when her adjusting slows and she perhaps feels more-or-less settled, this is when I feel Her “Push.” ⁣

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       It’s quite difficult to describe. So I’ll do so with a visual example; Imagine you are laying on your back, and a woman is lying atop you. And she uses her knees (straddled on both sides of you) as leverage against the ground. She reaches down and grabs two fist-fulls of your shirt and “lift/pushes” your body, to slide backwards and up, across the floor or ground. What it (the actual experience) felt like, was; Lilith had placed her hands into my chest/pectoral area and ‘massaged’ my whole being up towards the head of the bed (towards the wall). The massaging motion pushed me ‘up’ and “OUT.” And though (like Her pushes and nudges in the past) I could “feel” myself moving, I was also aware that my body wasn’t moving from its original position. ⁣

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       𝐀𝐧𝐝 𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐈 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐚 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐨𝐫𝐲, 𝐛𝐚𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐧 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐮𝐬 𝐟𝐚𝐫: 𝐖𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐋𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐢𝐬 “𝐩𝐮𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠” 𝐦𝐞 (𝐧𝐮𝐝𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐞), 𝐢𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐦𝐲 𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐭 (𝐨𝐫 𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐥 𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲, 𝐨𝐫 𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐠𝐲 𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲) 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐦𝐲 𝐩𝐡𝐲𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥 𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲. 𝐌𝐲 𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐲 𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐋𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐡’𝐬 𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐠-𝐩𝐮𝐬𝐡𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐬 𝐢𝐟 𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐥𝐲 𝐜𝐨𝐚𝐱𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐭 𝐨𝐮𝐭. Like slowly molding clay and shaping one side, by pressing on it delicately with your fingers (as an example). And this is why it felt like I have been “moving” and ‘not moving’ at the same time. Because my physical body was remaining stationary, while my spiritual body was being ‘massaged’ outwards. 𝐀𝐧𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐜𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐥𝐲 𝐈’𝐦 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐛𝐨𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞, 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐨𝐭𝐡.⁣

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       Okay, now that I have best been able to describe the sensation of my spirit being “pushed,” now I’ll try to describe the next…⁣

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       Wait. One more additional note: 𝐖𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐈 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐜𝐫𝐢𝐛𝐞 𝐋𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐟𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 𝐚𝐭𝐨𝐩 𝐦𝐞, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐮𝐫𝐞 𝐨𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐚𝐫𝐦, 𝐥𝐞𝐠𝐬, 𝐬𝐨 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐡, 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐚𝐝𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭; 𝐈 𝐝𝐨𝐧’𝐭 𝐧𝐞𝐜𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦 𝐨𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐩𝐡𝐲𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥 𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲. 𝐈 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤, 𝐦𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐞, 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦 𝐨𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐮𝐚𝐥 𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲 𝐓𝐇𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐆𝐇 𝐦𝐲 𝐩𝐡𝐲𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥 𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲. [𝐷𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑢𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝐼 𝑚𝑒𝑎𝑛?] ⁣

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       𝐌𝐲 𝐩𝐡𝐲𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥 𝐚𝐫𝐦 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐮𝐚𝐥 𝐚𝐫𝐦 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞 (𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐝 𝐚𝐭𝐨𝐩 𝐨𝐧𝐞-𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫). 𝐒𝐨 𝐢𝐟 𝐋𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐬, 𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲, 𝐨𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐮𝐚𝐥 𝐚𝐫𝐦… 𝐢𝐭 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐛𝐞 𝐚𝐬 𝐢𝐟 ‘𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠’ 𝐢𝐭 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐬𝐩𝐨𝐭 𝐚𝐬 𝐦𝐲 𝐩𝐡𝐲𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥 𝐚𝐫𝐦.⁣

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       So now, Lilith has “pushed” or gently massaged my spirit upward/backwards and ‘out.’ Leaving my physical body floating maybe only a foot distance away, close enough that I’m aware of it and the space between both. And this next part is the most Amazing!!! Once She has kneaded my spirit up and out of me, she quickly throws herself around me in a STRONG embracing hug! [I can actually feel Her move FAST, like surging forward, towards my suspended spirit.]⁣

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       If feels like She seems to wrap Her arms, Her legs and Her whole being around me! Like wings wrapped around tightly. At the first moment I feel this, I’m elated with joy and honor that She would deem me worthy of embrace. I desperately want to tell Her so. To thank Her. I try to move my lips to audibly say “Lilith” and “yes” and “thank you,” but I cannot make my lips move. And I cannot make my voice utter the sounds. My lips and voice are paralyzed (for lack of a better word) and do not respond to my mind’s command. ⁣

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       Just after her enrapturing embrace and my desire to audibly praise Her; my spirit “snaps” back into my body (like a rubber-band). 𝐌𝐲 𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐲 𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲, 𝐡𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐬 𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐜𝐤𝐥𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐢𝐭. And once back, Lilith begins kneading me again, gently massaging and pushing me (my spirit) up, backwards and out. To hang suspended just a foot up, diagonally from my body. ⁣

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　And again she rushes forward quickly to wrap me up in Her breath-expelling embracing. My mind is a swirl of thoughtless emotions while held in Her hug. And I soooo desperately want to return the hug. I’m afraid that I’m unworthy to touch Her back in return. I thought that it would be disrespectful for me to embrace Her in a hug, in return for the smothering and enshrouding hug that She had now giving me (unworthy) twice in one night. ⁣

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       I try, despite not knowing proper protocol, to move my arms to wrap Her in a hug also. But I cannot move my arms. They too, like my lips and voice, are paralyzed. In my mind’s-voice, because I couldn’t speak aloud, I simply repeated; “Yes, Lilith. Yes, Lilith.” And “I want to hug you.”⁣

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       It was at this point I realized that I was experiencing “sleep paralysis” but outside of the realm of ‘sleep’ (~as I was sleepy, yes, but still awake with eyes shut~). 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐥𝐲𝐬𝐢𝐬 [𝐈 𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐝] 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐚 𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐮𝐥𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐲 𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐭 𝐭𝐞𝐦𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐣𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 (𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐟𝐮𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲). ⁣

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       Therefore: 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐭, 𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐭, 𝐢𝐬 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲 𝐜𝐚𝐩𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭. (𝑇ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑖𝑠 𝑎 𝑛𝑒𝑤 𝑔𝑛𝑜𝑠𝑖𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑎𝑏𝑠𝑜𝑟𝑏 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑐𝑒𝑠𝑠). Once I became aware that I cannot physically move my arms to hug Her (although, I suppose the effort would be futile anyways, since She likely had no physical body to touch, after-all); I instead, without thought, planning or meaning to… I somehow move my arms, my spiritual arms, (in my mind) …like visualizing my arms moving upwards from where I lay. ⁣

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       [𝑅𝑒𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟: 𝐼 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑎𝑙𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑦 “𝑠𝑛𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑒𝑑” 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑦 𝑏𝑜𝑑𝑦 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛 𝑎𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑟 ℎ𝑒𝑟 2𝑛𝑑 ℎ𝑢𝑔]. I can ‘see’ (~through the mind’s eye?~) and feel that my arms have moved into an “embrace” posture. [𝐌𝐲 𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐮𝐚𝐥 𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐬 𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐬 𝐚 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐜 𝐛𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐜𝐨𝐥𝐨𝐫, 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐚 𝐠𝐥𝐨𝐰𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐭𝐞-𝐥𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧 𝐚𝐮𝐫𝐚 𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦]. Even though my physical arms remained un-moving and unresponsive. I can feel something with my left ‘hand’ as it drops down to my side. Maybe it’s Lilith’s leg, straddled over my waist? Or perhaps Her hip/bottom? But I feel it with (what I can only surmise) is my spiritual hand. ⁣

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       Lilith massages at my chest again, pushing myself, my spirit up toward the wall at the head of the bed and up and out to float suspended just above the bed. And for the 3rd time, She rushes forward and engulfs me in Her cocooning embrace! [𝑇ℎ𝑟𝑖𝑐𝑒 ℎ𝑢𝑔𝑔𝑒𝑑. 𝑇ℎ𝑟𝑖𝑐𝑒 𝑢𝑛𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑡ℎ𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑟𝑒𝑐𝑒𝑖𝑣𝑒.] I only call out Her name now (in my mind), hoping She can hear the appreciation and love in my spirit’s voice; telepathically spoken to Her, since I still do not have the mental faculties to speak audibly. ⁣

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       This third embrace was Her final one for me, for the night. Perhaps thankfully so, because I felt exhausted from the experience. Not tired. But rather like I was trying to catch my breath. My heartbeat had rapidly quickened, my breath came in bursts and I simply felt exhausted. I felt one last chill beside me when I could speak again. And I thanked Her repeatedly (~after I found my voice~).