Before bed, I crushed some more rose petals to be used in the upcoming ceremony. After a brief conversation saying good night to Lilith at Her altar; providing incense and inviting Her and/or Her children to visit in exchange of energy/breath/affections, I then went to my bed. I lay there for some time and despite knowing I needed to wake up early for work – still felt inclined to practice calming my mind, focusing on breathing and attempting spirit/ body separation. ⁣

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      Once I began to feel the presence of spirits; I welcomed them, enjoying feeling their energy drift around me, above me. I used this opportunity (offering my Breath) to make wishes of my own. I wished: ⁣

1) That they could help teach me how to lift my spirit from my physical body. ⁣

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2) That they could help teach me how to meditate, so that my ability to communicate with them could improve.⁣

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      I continued to lay there, reciting Lilith’s Enn in my mind and focusing on relaxing my body. Slowly, I began to feel the vibrations, which meant that it was time to try. I felt like although there was improvement to my efforts – I still didn’t manage full spirit-movement. I stopped trying, knowing that I ‘should’ just consider sleeping instead, given my early alarm. ⁣

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      This was when a wonderful spirit/lilin swept herself over me! Sending that familiar and delightful cascading pin-prickling waves of tingling energy flowing over my whole body. Spreading from my chest and back, down my arms and through my legs. ⁣

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      My entire body thrummed with a pulsating and rippling energy of her presence. I felt my chest get heavy as she lay atop it, perhaps eager for me to provide my Breath? I did so, just in case (I am pleased to find any way to return the love that they show me). I thanked her and told her I love her (all audibly). I revel in her visit and at the sensation of her above me for time, then roll over to my side, to settle my mind for sleep. ⁣

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      It was then that I encountered the odd “between asleep” and “aware of waking physicality.” Because I felt the spirit taking-shape/changing forms, changing from an invisible ethereal-presence; into a tangible body of energy (very similar to the night of September 18th, 2024). But she hadn’t changed into a body resembling a human form, but remained in the shape of a malleable large orb of energy. I believe because I wasn’t fully asleep, so my “dream-sight” wasn’t able to perceive a visage of her, as such. ⁣

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      When wrapping my arms tightly and lovingly around her; she was like, as if: An invisible, large, very soft blanket of cotton had ballooned/inflated itself up into the shape of a squishy orb-like oval. Her spirit body would sink-in and depress as I moved my arms around her, to hold her/ hug her. And she would mold like clay when we twisted around each other in the bed. ⁣

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      I was both asleep and awake simultaneously, because I could feel and sense our movements and “bodies” pressed together and move around on the bed (without my physical body moving). While at the same time – I was audibly (out loud) repeating how much I loved her and continued to thank her for visiting me, and asked her if there was anything I could offer her in exchange for all the energy that she was expending to visit me this night. ⁣

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      Eventually our romp around the bed slowly ended and she disappeared all together. When I became aware of my physical senses and physical body – it was undeniably obvious that my material body had been “affected” by our loving entanglement. Because my ‘member’ below was very hard down there. After that, I started to truly settle into sleep. All the while; thanking her for visiting and desperately telling myself to remember this moment as best as possible, to record in this book. ⁣

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      I have gained one insight about our/my spirit-bodies that is worthy of note (especially where it concerns spirit/body separation for astral projection):⁣

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𝐆𝐧𝐨𝐬𝐢𝐬: ⁣

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      𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑝𝑖𝑟𝑖𝑡 (𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑒/𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑠) 𝑖𝑠𝑛’𝑡 𝑛𝑒𝑐𝑒𝑠𝑠𝑎𝑟𝑖𝑙𝑦 “𝑏𝑢𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑑” 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑜𝑑𝑦, 𝑜𝑟 𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑒𝑑, 𝑜𝑟 ‘𝑑𝑒𝑒𝑝𝑒𝑟’ 𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑜𝑤 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑢𝑟𝑓𝑎𝑐𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑝ℎ𝑦𝑠𝑖𝑐𝑎𝑙 𝑏𝑜𝑑𝑦. 𝐼𝑡 𝑖𝑠 𝑠𝑖𝑚𝑝𝑙𝑦 𝑙𝑎𝑦𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑑 𝑑𝑖𝑟𝑒𝑐𝑡𝑙𝑦 𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑒𝑙 (𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑟) 𝑖𝑡/𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛 𝑖𝑡. ⁣

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      𝑆𝑜 𝑖𝑡 𝑖𝑠𝑛’𝑡 𝑎 𝑚𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑦 𝑠𝑝𝑖𝑟𝑖𝑡 𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑑𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜 “𝑠𝑡𝑟𝑢𝑔𝑔𝑙𝑒 𝑐𝑙𝑎𝑤𝑖𝑛𝑔” 𝑖𝑡’𝑠 (𝑚𝑦) 𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑜𝑢𝑡… 𝐼 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 ‘𝑠𝑤𝑖𝑡𝑐ℎ/𝑠𝑤𝑎𝑝’ 𝑡𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑝𝑖𝑟𝑖𝑡, 𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑎𝑑 𝑜𝑓 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑖𝑎𝑙 𝑏𝑜𝑑𝑦… 𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑚𝑦𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 ‘𝑚𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦’ 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑝ℎ𝑦𝑠𝑖𝑐𝑎𝑙 𝑏𝑜𝑑𝑦. ⁣

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      𝐻𝑦𝑝𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑡𝑖𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦 / 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑜𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑖𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦 𝑖𝑡 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑛’𝑡 𝑏𝑒 ‘𝑑𝑖𝑓𝑓𝑖𝑐𝑢𝑙𝑡’… 𝐵𝑢𝑡 𝑛𝑜 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑐𝑒𝑠𝑠 𝑜𝑓 𝑟𝑖𝑑𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎 𝑏𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑓𝑒𝑐𝑡 𝑠𝑢𝑐𝑐𝑒𝑠𝑠, 𝑟𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦. 𝐼𝑡 𝑡𝑎𝑘𝑒𝑠 𝑝𝑟𝑎𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑐𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑝𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑐𝑒. 𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑛 ℎ𝑜𝑝𝑒𝑓𝑢𝑙𝑙𝑦 𝑎𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑦𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑠…𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑠 𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑐𝑡𝑢𝑎𝑙.