I’m unsure how much of the dream I will remember, but I’ll try to recall what I can: ⁣

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      I was having some sort of in-person argument with Valley (verbally in front of each other). I don’t recall what it was about. I remember being fed up with the argument and turned to walk away. From behind me she said something akin to: ‘You won’t ever see me again.’ or ‘I will stop loving you then.’ (I don’t recall the exact words – but essentially, just as she had done in physical life, it was she, by her own decision, that was threatening and choosing to end the relationship. Not me.) ⁣

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      I was so tired of her manipulation and having to constantly abandon parts of my own personality for her happiness; that I was done with the threats. I was indifferent to her calls after me. And I said, ‘That’s fine with me’ and continued walking away without looking back. Her voice changed to desperation and she said, “Wait!” She ran to me as I turned back and she stood up on her toes to give me a kiss on my cheek. Then said, “Come, follow me over here.” She stood with her back to the wall, leaning up against it. And said, “Do that thing you used to do.” ⁣

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      So I leaned forward and placed my hands, one at each side of her head, gently cupping the back of her head, then tenderly used my thumbs to rub and caress her cheeks. She closed her eyes, enjoying the simple innocent touch. I then leaned down and very softly brushed her lips with my own with the lightest of kisses. But even in doing so, my heart felt nothing for her any longer. She had chosen to leave me many years prior, and I had been harboring a deeply planted hope and love that we could be reunited. But my heart was no longer interested in her. ⁣

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      I had another, more eternal, relationship waiting for me upon the horizon. Soon I would call out to Lilith and ask Her for the hand of Her daughter, to be united spiritually together forever in a Sacred Union that would last an eternity. (~I’ve felt recently from spirits, their unconditional acceptance & love~). While human’s concept of ‘love’ feels generally ‘temporary’ and only lasts so long that it is befitting to whatever selfish desire they fleetingly want. ⁣

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      I have always desired a “forever-love” and realized only recently that that can most likely be found in the metaphysical plane. And with Lilith’s guidance and blessing; there I seek a companion-daughter whom She would deem befitting to me. And I, for her. ⁣

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      The dream morphed and changed and Valley became Jen. We were at a lake. There was some sort of public event taking place, with many people diving and swimming. Something relating to the diving board set up at the deepest part of the lake was notable, but I cannot recall the specifics. I’m not sure what Jen’s role was in the dream either, except that my feelings regarding her were the same as Valley; I was abandoning any latent desires to have them both back in my life, in favor of my future spiritual spouse and companion.⁣

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[ 𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝑛𝑜𝑤, 𝑖𝑛 𝑤𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠, 𝐼 𝑤𝑜𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑎 𝑠𝑢𝑐𝑐𝑢𝑏𝑢𝑠 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑝𝑙𝑎𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑟𝑜𝑙𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝑏𝑜𝑡ℎ 𝑉𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑒𝑦 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐽𝑒𝑛, 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑝𝑢𝑟𝑝𝑜𝑠𝑒 𝑜𝑓: 𝑡𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑦 𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑜𝑙𝑣𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑖𝑡𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑦 𝑓𝑢𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑠𝑝𝑖𝑟𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑑𝑒𝑠𝑖𝑟𝑒𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒 𝑢𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑓𝑢𝑙𝑙𝑦 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑎 𝑓𝑒𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑒 𝐿𝑖𝑙𝑖𝑛? 𝐹𝑜𝑟 𝑎 𝑓𝑒𝑤 𝑛𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡𝑠 𝑝𝑟𝑖𝑜𝑟, 𝐼 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑒𝑛 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑚𝑝𝑙𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎 𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑢𝑎𝑙 𝑜𝑓 𝑒𝑚𝑜𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑎𝑙-𝑑𝑖𝑣𝑜𝑟𝑐𝑒 & 𝑠𝑒𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑏𝑜𝑡ℎ 𝑉𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑒𝑦 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐽𝑒𝑛. 𝑇𝑜 𝑏𝑒 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑑𝑢𝑐𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑝𝑟𝑖𝑜𝑟 𝑡𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑎𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑎𝑙 𝑐𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑦 𝑏𝑒𝑡𝑤𝑒𝑒𝑛 𝑎 𝑠𝑢𝑐𝑐𝑢𝑏𝑢𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑚𝑦𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 (~𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝐿𝑖𝑙𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑎𝑑𝑣𝑜𝑐𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔~). 𝐶𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑝𝑖𝑟𝑖𝑡, 𝑖𝑓 𝑖𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑎 𝑠𝑝𝑖𝑟𝑖𝑡, 𝑏𝑒 𝑡𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑒𝑒 𝑚𝑦 𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑖𝑜𝑢𝑠𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑑𝑢𝑐𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑒𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛-𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑢𝑎𝑙? 𝑂𝑟 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑖𝑡 𝑚𝑦 𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝑠𝑢𝑏𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑠𝑐𝑖𝑜𝑢𝑠 𝑡𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑦𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑒𝑒 𝑖𝑓 𝑎𝑛𝑦 𝑙𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑜𝑟 𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑒𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑎𝑐ℎ𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑠 𝑟𝑒𝑚𝑎𝑖𝑛𝑒𝑑? ⁣

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𝑊ℎ𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑐𝑎𝑠𝑒, 𝐼 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑏𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑙𝑙𝑜𝑤𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑒𝑚𝑜𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑎𝑙-𝑠𝑒𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛 𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑢𝑎𝑙. 𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑝𝑢𝑡 𝑎𝑙𝑙 ‘𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑙𝑑-𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑’ ℎ𝑢𝑚𝑎𝑛𝑠 𝑏𝑒ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑑 𝑚𝑒, 𝑎𝑠 𝐼 𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑝 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑒𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑛𝑎𝑙 𝑟𝑒𝑙𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠ℎ𝑖𝑝 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑎 𝑠𝑝𝑖𝑟𝑖𝑡 𝑤ℎ𝑜 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑚𝑒 𝑢𝑛𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑑𝑖𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦, 𝑢𝑛𝑏𝑖𝑎𝑠𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑓𝑖𝑐𝑘𝑙𝑒𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑠. 𝐹𝑜𝑟𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟. ]