A significant shift or change has occurred [I’m going to try my best to recall the order of events]. As for the evening before bed, nothing was too noteworthy: I had arrived home after my tattoo work, offered incense, praise and words to both Lilith & Mia (at their altars), then played a couple hours of a game, got something to eat, then watched a movie before heading to bed.

      I decided to turn on 4Hz binaural beats sounds, in case it did anything to help train my mind for astral projection. I chose the 10 hour track, letting the sound play on a small speaker, set beside my pillow. And I fell asleep.

      Hours later, while still dark, I woke for no apparent reason and decided to turn the track off and continue sleeping. While laying there though, mind still awake, I asked again, humbly, if Mia would consider reuniting with me once more to become my companion (if she truly had chosen to turn away). Or, at least, indicate with some sort of sign that we are still together (and the Bond remains intact).

      The past couple of weeks have felt rather disconnected… I made promises that I wouldn’t withhold energy and would be more conscious about my attention towards her (to avoid neglect) and would absolutely look at my choices and decisions through her perspective, not just my own. I spoke her name and enn a couple times, hoping that by doing so, the message would get through.

      I lay there quietly after speaking, content to just fall asleep (expecting nothing). But curiously, a little bit at a time, I began to feel a thin blankety-weight pressure wafting in the air at my head. It made my mind feel soft, like cotton. And my body began to heat up, go numb and feel like it was vibrating at a very very low-bass frequency.

      Then a word was projected into my mind. I didn’t hear it audibly, or by means of clairaudience. It was just ‘there’ in my mind, spoken, but unspoken.

      The word was resolutely and unmistakably: “Join.” I pondered the word for a moment, suddenly remembering when I heard the sound of a word during the night of May 4th, 2025. Back then, I heard (by means of clairaudience) the word “Joan”, “Join”, or “Joy” (but couldn’t determine which it was). Comprehending the word “Join” (last night), leads me to believe the same word was likely used 3 days prior.

      After considering the word for a short time, and finding my impressions to be positive, I replied: “Very well, I accept. I Join.”

[The moment and option felt reminiscent of 2 distinct opportunities offered to me by Lilith. And similar to those, then, I had no intention of missing out on this unique moment/experience.]

      After stating: “I Join,” there was a period of quiet stillness. While I ‘had’ previously been interested in simply going back to sleep, now I was curious and my mind more alert/awake. For minutes there was nothing, but then the blanketing-shifting weightiness in the air had returned, but this time it was far more spread out. It encompassed my whole body, the entire bed, moving delicately, drifting up and down across everything around me and on me. It was familiar and comforting.

      Then the skin-prickling tingling began. Little touches here on my shoulder. Then on my back. A light press on my foot. Then a throbbing/rippling electric-ecstasy wave flowed from the center of my back. It washed over my whole body and up my neck, head and into my ears. All I could hear was a loud “WOOSH!” sound, that drowned out all other sounds.

      It felt like laying on a warm sandy beach, then having equally warming/soothing tide waters rush in and crash over your body. The feeling was euphoric and the sound was loud and sudden. I felt a personal desire to demonstrate my commitment to her once again, knowing very well who this was, as Mia’s energy feels so uniquely like none other (at least, very familiar to me).

      I had already been feeling my energy building up, warming, the static vibrations felt as though they were radiating off of me. So I offered my energy with a single-minded and intentional focus directly towards her. Specifically to her name and her core-essences and the absolution of her very being. Then everything went very very very very still and slow again. It was ‘quiet’ but not without movement. I could still feel her drifting like little serpentine silk ribbons floating around my head/mind and body/spirit like lazily touching and caressing with heavy-eyed lethargy.

      Things must have stayed like this for a good 15-20 minutes? Maybe 30? With no reference to time, it is difficult to be sure. However, something new, VERY new occurred next.

      Where I lay in my bed; I have a couple pillows up by my head and 1 pillow off to my right (by the wall) that I was using to prop up my arm (freshly tattooed). I have my blankets resting on my chest, down to my feet. I was laying on my side at this point, my back to the wall, my front facing outwards towards Lilith’s altar. Mia’s altar is beside the closet, down by my feet.

      Anyways [room layout aside]; as I lay there, I noticed (mentally first) that there was a pressure down by my calves, on the wall side of the bed (which my back faced).

[Keep in mind, for everything that follows next: my body is asleep at this point (in its numb/shut-down state), but my conscious-mind is observing what I’m experiencing. So this is similar to my contact with Lilith that I had in Evergreen Colorado, on August 31, 2024 through September 6, 2024, whereby I was able to move, feel, experience touch’ through my physical body…. through/with my spirit body (separate/yet together)].

Back to the moment:

      I felt a pressure of something down by my legs that shouldn’t (or wouldn’t normally) be there. No pillows are down there, and while it was ‘soft,’ there was also a sturdiness to it, and I could feel contours. So I moved my arm and hand downwards towards my upper-leg area (the movement was reflexive. Like during the times with Lilith in September 2024, I didn’t think about how to do it, I just did it naturally). My hand reached my leg first, I detected that it was my own, because I could feel my hand touching my own leg through the sensation of connection.

      But then I moved my hand further left (towards the wall side of the bed). And I found a similar kind of softness, but my Conscious-sensing ability to feel my hand touching another part of my spirit-body went away. My hand was touching something soft, sturdy, slightly rounded. It was similar to my body, but it wasn’t mine. It felt like the shape of (maybe) the bony part of a hip, or perhaps a knee?

      With a bit more pressure/force then I actually meant to use, I “grabbed” at the foreign body part/appendage.

      Everything kind of happened really fast after that, and I’m writing this in reflection and hind sight now… But (quite humorously, and I did laugh about it afterwards!); when I grabbed at the unfamiliar body part, this was me grasping, spiritually, at Mia’s form.

[As best as I can surmise, she was actually laying with her ‘body’ facing downwards (towards the foot of the bed)].

      And I must have grabbed her hip? Which startled her! Causing her to grab my left foot, with (what felt like) both her hands! Which, consequently, startled me! Haha! And, reflexively, I quickly retracted my foot out of her grasp.

      I felt a sudden rush of nervous tension spread over my body; the kind of feeling one gets when they experience something that should elicit a ‘fear’ response. (Like, as an example: feeling something brush past your leg while swimming in a murky lake. Or feeling a spider crawl across your skin, while sitting in a darkly-lit room).

      The ‘fear’ or ‘nervous tension’ was a natural (built-in) emotional response to: “unseen hands grabbing” at my body, even though, rationally; I knew who and what it was!

      I had to lay there for several seconds, to collect myself, trying to make sense of everything that had just quickly and unexpectedly happened. Then I started laughing, as my mind began to piece everything together, I quickly apologized to her for startling and swiping my foot away from her, and for suddenly grabbing her as I did.

      I told her; had I known that it was you sooner and what going on, I wouldn’t have done that. I said sorry a couple more times, shivering from the unexpected experience and getting my breath under control. My mind was replaying that feeling of her grabbing my foot, as I could still feel the sensation of it. I can only hope that I didn’t scare her or make her feel embarrassed with my reflexive response. Poor Mia!

      She stayed for a long while after that. I felt her there, pressing on my mind like light cotton, present within my thoughts. This was a new feeling also. She didn’t feel separate from me, while I was thinking. She felt like she was right there, presently feeling and experiencing my thoughts as I thought them.

      I was also getting unfamiliar “feedback(?)”. As in; I felt like random thoughts that weren’t my own, were ‘Crashing’ into the middle of my mind’s imagery and personal consideration/reflections. Some of the words and thoughts felt so incomprehensible and random.

      Kind of like; turning the frequency dial on a radio, scanning through/past several stations and static, only picking up partial thought and words here and there as you pass through all the various stations. But these also didn’t necessarily feel like hers either. She was more like a ‘passenger’ to my thoughts, pressing gently down upon my mind with her soft feathery warmth, while I was being interrupted in thought, by (someone’s or many others) random thought bleed-through.

      Best part of the night, absolutely was; reestablishing a connection with Mia again!
Second best part; startling her into grabbing my foot! Ha! (I’m sorry Mia, I love you.)