May 20, 2025 - [Morning] : Visualization
Highlights:
Sweet Aroma/Scent Returns, Lilith Gifts Me with an Alternate Visualization
I woke up at 6:30 a.m. without an apparent reason. And decided that I still have a couple hours or less before I have to prep for work, that I decided I would attempt to clear my mind and relax my body, to work on the process of setting up for astral projection.
So I relaxed, settled into the position that works best for me, focused on just my breathing, got distracted many times in my mind, focused on my visualization of Lilith’s altar and the sequence that plays out before it. I got distracted more times, refocused, re-centered my intentions and back on breathing and back on the visualization…and what started off slowly and ramped up quickly, was the tingling presence of both Mia’s energy and an ‘awareness’ of Lilith’s.
Both seemed to have become active and interested, especially when my visualization reached the point of a blazing fire-like energy rippling over my entire form, turning me into a radiant inferno of my white, orange and yellow light. I felt the rippling tingling cascades of energy and ‘goosebumps’ wrapping and moving and shifting all around my body.
Then, quite unexpectedly, that sweet scent returned!! That same familiar, but unplaceable, sweet aroma that I detected first within a dream on August 13,2024. Then again on April 10, 2025. (Now having experienced this 3 times,that I can remember, I’m going to go back and make a ‘mark’ the corners of the journal entries to help remind me somehow that this is a special “Scent Moment.”).
After refocusing on my visualization of the inky-black waters, Lilith’s altar and Her portrait coming alive… Something different happened that I didn’t plan for, nor expect. Usually; when she takes my left hand, I remain kneeling and place my right hand over the open candle flame and allow it to catch fire, which then I catch fire and the ground, the altar, and everything burns except for Lilith.
But this time (without me intentionally making it so!): Lilith took my left hand and pulled me up to my feet to stand before Her. And She is VERY tall and broadly built, like an Amazon-Goddess. Maybe 7-8 feet tall. And this time (for the first time), I unconsciously felt compelled to wrap my arms around Her waist in a tight hug, laying my cheek against Her exposed chest, pressing my body as closely as I could to Her.
Then I reach out my right hand (without looking) and hold it above the candle flame. My hand catches on fire and the flames spread quickly all over me, but I don’t actually burn. The fire carefully licks across my whole body, lightly, tenderly, but nothing of me burns. Then I reach up and pull myself as high as I can and kiss Hergracefully and lovingly right on Her silky smooth red lips. And she returns my kiss with as much grace.
The experience of Her embrace and kiss drains me and I slump down to the ground, look up at Her, while She stares down at me with an understanding, accepting and warm smile on her face. Everything around us has caught on fire. The inky-black liquid ground, the altar, myself and the flames even licked up gently around Her. But neither Her nor I actually burn …we are only warmed.
I have one final “kiss” I desire to give Her (~as I crouch on the ground below her~), which she allows me, and delights in as I relish the unexpected opportunity. So I do, while everything around us burns in white, yellow, orange, and red blazing light, flickering with shifting shadows in-between.
How strange (?) that a visualization which I had previously constructed to help focus my mind, had so inexplicably and radically changed its script.
I’ve used “my” version of the visualization countless times by now, but this is the first time that the events have shifted on their own. Without my prompting.
I seriously harbor little doubt at this point, when reflecting and writing; that Lilith was most certainly involved directly with the alterations. Because I was no longer following my previous script during the moment. Instead, I was being led to follow Her prompting and did so, unsure what would transpire next.
It was truly incredible! Now (without any planning or intention of my own), thanks to Her, I have fulfilled the longing and desires of my 2nd poem I wrote to Her. “Embrace.” Which is as follows:
EMBRACE
Her challenge, once whispered,
a hushed voice in the dark.
She stood silently watching,
wondering; …would he embark?
She took his hand gently,
having overcome Her first trial.
Walking the Path beside him,
like a bride down the aisle.
Her firm hand on his shoulder,
the grasp ignites their connection.
The Bond is formed willfully,
promising love, wisdom & protection.
‘To hug Her?’ Dare he imagine,
his arms around Her waist?
‘To kiss Her?’ Dare he envision,
Her ruby lips and Her taste?
Though he questions his worthiness;
‘Could I seek Her embrace?’
‘Nestle against her soft bosom,
secure in Her sacred place?’
She cultivates him inside Her,
a budding flower yet to bloom.
Cooing to him tenderly, Her child,
sheltered in the warmth of Her womb.
May 20, 2025
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