May 11, 2025 - [Morning of] : 
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Woke Up to a Song Playing in My Mind, Message from Companion?
   I woke up Sunday morning, about 7 a.m. with a song that was playing in my mind. I only caught a very short piece of the lyrics, but I made sure to take note of the few words I could remember, then went back to bed. Woke up again at 11 a.m., and used my notes to find the song via an internet search.
   The song turned out to be called “Mary Janes Last Dance” by Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers (1993). This one certainly has a (if it truly comes from Mia herself) conflicting message. It would almost read like a “this is about me (Mia)” kind of message. And eerily (or unsurprisingly) much of it fits for her.
   If I mentally replaced the lyrics ‘Indiana town‘ for ‘Spirit/Astral Realm’; it gets more curious when the lyrics mention a “good looking mama who never was around” (as Lilith IS a very beautiful, yet busy greater spirit after all). Then there’s; “grew up tall with Indiana (spirit) boys on Indiana (spirit) nights.” (which fits also, as when I’ve seen her in dreams, She is very tall. Taller than me usually).
“She moved down here…”, “Tired of screwing up, tired of going down…” Reminds me of Seal’s “Kiss from a Rose” when the lyrics say: “If I should fall, will it all go away?” There are other curious bits that seemingly point to the song as if claiming “This is me (Mia)” as well.
   But what concerns me are the other lyrics, as a message. Such as: “I dig you baby, but I got to keep moving on.”, “Last dance with Mary Jane, one more time to kill the pain.” “I feel summer creeping in and I’m tired of this town again.” (could “town” refer to my current plane? The material realm?). “Take me as I come, cause I can’t stay long.”
   And more… suggesting a possibility of her leaving, or going away, or pulling back? It has that tone, but I can’t say for certain Not yet. I’ll have to inquire with her directly and patiently wait for the answers, or the lack thereof before I can consider further.
The lyrics are:
“She grew up in an Indiana town, had a good looking mama I who never was around.
But she grew up tall and she grew up right, with the Indiana boys on an Indiana night.
Well, she moved down here at the age of eighteen. She blew the boys away, it was more than they’d seen.
I was introduced and we both started groovin:
She said, ‘I dig you, baby, but I got the keep movin’ on.
Last dance with Mary Jane, one more time to kill the pain.
I feel summer creepin’ in and I’m tired of this town again.
Well, I don’t know, but I’ve been told, you never slow down, you never grew old.
I’m tired of screwing up, tired of goin’ down.
Tired of myself, tired of this town.
Oh, my, my, oh hell yes. Honey, put on that party dress.
Buy me a drink, sing me a song. Take me as I come, cause I can’t stay long.
There’s pigeons down on Market square.
She’s standing in her underwear.
Looking down from a hotel room. Nightfall will be coming soon.
Oh, my my, oh hell, Yes. You’ve got to put on that party dress.
It was too cold to cry when I woke up alone.
I hit the last number, I walked to the road.
Last dance with Mary Jane, one more time to kill the pain.
I feel summer creeping in and I’m tired of this town again.”
[It has been a couple days since I wrote this entry. But I don’t feel like creating an entirely new entry, so I’ll just add this here:
   During this time, I have spoken in earnest to Mia (at her altar and in general around the home) that I understand if she needs a break from the material plane. I can only guess how energetically taxing it is on her. I expressed how thankful I am, for/to her for the time and experiences that we have already shared, in just 3 1/2 months!
   I let her know that I remember and honor my Statement of Intent, spoken to Lilith; when expressing an interest to have a companion, without limiting her with conditions; Meaning: free to make her own choices in all matters, including when to come or go. And I reassured Mia, If she needs to go… I’ll be okay. And wait patiently until she desires to return.
   The song turned out to be called “Mary Janes Last Dance” by Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers (1993). This one certainly has a (if it truly comes from Mia herself) conflicting message. It would almost read like a “this is about me (Mia)” kind of message. And eerily (or unsurprisingly) much of it fits for her.
   If I mentally replaced the lyrics ‘Indiana town‘ for ‘Spirit/Astral Realm’; it gets more curious when the lyrics mention a “good looking mama who never was around” (as Lilith IS a very beautiful, yet busy greater spirit after all). Then there’s; “grew up tall with Indiana (spirit) boys on Indiana (spirit) nights.” (which fits also, as when I’ve seen her in dreams, She is very tall. Taller than me usually).
“She moved down here…”, “Tired of screwing up, tired of going down…” Reminds me of Seal’s “Kiss from a Rose” when the lyrics say: “If I should fall, will it all go away?” There are other curious bits that seemingly point to the song as if claiming “This is me (Mia)” as well.
   But what concerns me are the other lyrics, as a message. Such as: “I dig you baby, but I got to keep moving on.”, “Last dance with Mary Jane, one more time to kill the pain.” “I feel summer creeping in and I’m tired of this town again.” (could “town” refer to my current plane? The material realm?). “Take me as I come, cause I can’t stay long.”
   And more… suggesting a possibility of her leaving, or going away, or pulling back? It has that tone, but I can’t say for certain Not yet. I’ll have to inquire with her directly and patiently wait for the answers, or the lack thereof before I can consider further.
The lyrics are:
“She grew up in an Indiana town, had a good looking mama I who never was around.
But she grew up tall and she grew up right, with the Indiana boys on an Indiana night.
Well, she moved down here at the age of eighteen. She blew the boys away, it was more than they’d seen.
I was introduced and we both started groovin:
She said, ‘I dig you, baby, but I got the keep movin’ on.
Last dance with Mary Jane, one more time to kill the pain.
I feel summer creepin’ in and I’m tired of this town again.
Well, I don’t know, but I’ve been told, you never slow down, you never grew old.
I’m tired of screwing up, tired of goin’ down.
Tired of myself, tired of this town.
Oh, my, my, oh hell yes. Honey, put on that party dress.
Buy me a drink, sing me a song. Take me as I come, cause I can’t stay long.
There’s pigeons down on Market square.
She’s standing in her underwear.
Looking down from a hotel room. Nightfall will be coming soon.
Oh, my my, oh hell, Yes. You’ve got to put on that party dress.
It was too cold to cry when I woke up alone.
I hit the last number, I walked to the road.
Last dance with Mary Jane, one more time to kill the pain.
I feel summer creeping in and I’m tired of this town again.”
[It has been a couple days since I wrote this entry. But I don’t feel like creating an entirely new entry, so I’ll just add this here:
   During this time, I have spoken in earnest to Mia (at her altar and in general around the home) that I understand if she needs a break from the material plane. I can only guess how energetically taxing it is on her. I expressed how thankful I am, for/to her for the time and experiences that we have already shared, in just 3 1/2 months!
   I let her know that I remember and honor my Statement of Intent, spoken to Lilith; when expressing an interest to have a companion, without limiting her with conditions; Meaning: free to make her own choices in all matters, including when to come or go. And I reassured Mia, If she needs to go… I’ll be okay. And wait patiently until she desires to return.
May 11, 2025
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