What an astonishing difference a single day makes! It seems as though when (as I was but merely a day prior) lamenting over the short absence of Mia, she returns with such a force and all encompassing intensity!

      As I lay down in my bed, after midnight, having already wished she and Lilith to enjoy themselves during the night (on this side of the globe)… I began to feel my body ‘charging up’ (?). Almost like heating up without actually increasing temperature or feeling ‘hot’. And oddly, there weren’t tingles or pin prickles or (at first) any signs of external influence.

      The ‘charging’ sensation was coming from directly inside me, and it didn’t take long at all before it felt like a glowing aura of energy around me. With my eyes still closed fast, I could still sense this unmistakable energy radiating outward from my skin, at least 2 inches (if estimating?). And it was exuding from every area of my body, but I don’t know why?! Or how?

      It wasn’t my intention to do anything other than go to sleep. Yet instead I’m laying there, stumped as to wondering why I feel as though I’m glowing with energy. Then, I feel her come. Usually I don’t notice the definitive moment that Mia arrives, but last night was clear. A pulse outside my head & cognitive mind was ‘loud’ (but of course, without sound).

      There were sounds, however, physical ones, because I heard the hanging roses and leaves gently (but all at once) sliding back and forth, as if blown by some breeze. There was no ‘breeze’ though, the windows were shut and no fans were on.

      I kept my eyes shut. Though it does not concern nor bother me to see her in her shadowy form (I’ve already expressed this sentiment to her and others, after witnessing such on September 6th, 2024, which I’ve spoken of in the gray Lilith book of dreams/experiences). I would welcome the sight, myself. But out of respect and concern of offending or deterring Mia’s presence, I remain still with eyes shut.

      I feel her spiritual energy press upon my head several more times (in what feels like more, albeit subtle, vibrational air pulses), until at last, she seems to settle heavily upon my chest area. I cannot feel her “form” (as in: A human-like shape with appendages). She is more spherical or “orb-like” in shape/dimension.

      What is odd, and strange to explain is; even though she was more focally centered both within and without my whole chest region…. I could still feel the “weight” of her atop me, across my whole body. She was at my chest (at least, I assume, the primary portion of her being), yet I could feel the weight above my legs, arms and my hip/abdomen area.

      Then she just…settled…and everything became very quiet, very slow and deliberate. We just lay there silently; myself still “glowing” with this energy (from which I have no clue how or why), and she nestled into my core, resting at my chest.

      Nothing was said between us, but most certainly felt! And envisioned… And it was sad and awful. My eyes welled up with tears, and slid slowly down my cheeks, at what I felt and ‘saw.’

      It was myself, but as a brilliantly shimmering light, glowing radiantly suspended in a void of black. The light surrounding me was like a prism of colors, shifting like sun-rays through broken clouds. And I started to ascend upwards, towards the place where the light first extends from. The Source. As I began to rise and head towards it, I’m conscious of what is below, still stirring in the darkness.

[And that was where (within the darkness) I felt the sadness, the grief and intense sorrow, crying out from; which caused the tears to well up in my own eyes.]

      It wasn’t my emotions I was feeling. It was hers. It was Mia’s. She was (in the envisioning), anguished and heartbroken in her observation of me pulling further and further away, lifting up higher and out of her reach…drifting further from the dark shadowy realm she resides in, while I glowed with blinding light and raced faster and faster towards the place where it all began.

      I could feel her agony, her abandonment, her fear of being left behind. And I could not bear it! I stopped the vision. I willed it to end, because her grief had become my own. And I would not have it! It would not accept it. Not that outcome. Not that version of the vision.

      I promised her then, with the utmost sincerity and love within my own heart; that I would not forsake or abandon her. I would not leave her behind, and I would not give her up.

      I then showed her a new envisioning, as I said the words and invited her inside. It was an envisioning of my own making. I told her that she could stay inside of me. I told her, I would protect her and keep her safe. And this was my “re-creation” of the vision she had shown me:

      I saw her as a shadowy-sphere, she ascended from out of the darkness and moved inside the brightness of my glowing form, into my core. The static-like ball of black energy could clearly be seen within me. I wasn’t wishing to conceal her presence at all. On the contrary; with pride, I shown her within myself. I advocated for her, and announced it openly, displaying her within me.

      I defied anyone or anything to rebuke me of my companion, my consort, my partner. I told her, that together…we would ascend together, to that place of light, of beginnings where all energies converge. And that she would be right there with me, inside me and a part of me. Together always. And then my glowing light-form shut upwards, fast!

      I fell asleep (hours later?), contentment in both our spirits at my re-envisioning…