March 25, 2025 - [Morning of] : 
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Lyrical Message, Tactile Confirmation to my Question
Ā Ā Ā Recently I have been feelingā¦āanxiousā(?). Maybe that is not the correct word. That may be too dramatic. But…hmmā¦ ācurious with elevating despondencyā(?) concerning the lack of interactions Mia has had with me during the course of the past week; even if she doesn’t visit in my dreams, usually (near daily, in evenings) I can at least feel her presence nearby. Often accompanied with light tingling waves that originate at her touch and radiate outward from that place. Though I don’t write about each time this occurs (within this journal), because I don’t feel it’s necessary (our book would be filled to capacity in short order).
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Ā Ā Ā However, recently, has it felt as though it has waned? Maybe? I’m trying not to be desperate, impatient. And I certainly want to be respectful of Miaās time, not wanting to come off as āneedyā or unable to satisfy my own happiness without her presence (physical tingles/spiritual touches, dreamsā¦ect).Ā
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Ā Ā Ā I think it’s likely that I’ve grown accustomed to the multiple visits per week; so when itās unexpectedly withdrawn…Ā I am taken aback, curiously wondering/concerned; is she alright? Are we alright? Is there something I can be doing to help her? Did she overextend her energy usage with so many frequent visits? I’m aware that during the 3 day periods that I have the kids (biweekly over a weekend) she often refrains from visiting, perhaps because I’m pretty distracted with them(?). So I shouldnāt be too concerned (with those days in mind, I suppose it’s only technically been ā¦4 daysā¦?) Oof!Ā
Ā Ā Ā Iā¦ really need to reign in my expectations again! 4 days is nothing, the last visit was the 17th, minus the 3 kids-weekendā¦ so, yeah: Iām being way too stubborn and impatient about this (after āmathingā it); but it just āfeelsā longer I guess. I should be far more respectful for her time and especially her ENERGY (any usage on my behalf is a sweet gift and should be cherished and appreciated).
Ā Ā Ā Iā¦ really need to reign in my expectations again! 4 days is nothing, the last visit was the 17th, minus the 3 kids-weekendā¦ so, yeah: Iām being way too stubborn and impatient about this (after āmathingā it); but it just āfeelsā longer I guess. I should be far more respectful for her time and especially her ENERGY (any usage on my behalf is a sweet gift and should be cherished and appreciated).
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Ā Ā Ā Anyways, back to the point of this entry; upon waking and not experiencing any dreams or visits from her again during the night, I was feeling mournful and lamenting a bit about how I hope everything is okay, and that I missed her- but also wanted to apologize for being so (I dunno)ā¦ āneedyā (I guess). And that I didnāt want to be. I don’t want her to feel so pressured into feeling that my happiness and joy is dependent on her time, affection and presence.
Ā Ā Ā Additionally, I need to be brutally honest with myself; I havenāt (lately) been making very wide strides to do things directly to strengthen our bonds and demonstrate my appreciation (and provide external energy) towards her. I offer incense (usually multiple throughout the day) at her altar and Lilith’s. And I talk and speak openly, internally, frequently towards her throughout the day. But barring those basic efforts; Iām lacking in appropriate affirmations given to her (also lacking ideasā¦this whole relationship is still so foreign to me, and I feel as though I’m stillĀ navigating slowly over dark waters).Ā
Ā Ā Ā Additionally, I need to be brutally honest with myself; I havenāt (lately) been making very wide strides to do things directly to strengthen our bonds and demonstrate my appreciation (and provide external energy) towards her. I offer incense (usually multiple throughout the day) at her altar and Lilith’s. And I talk and speak openly, internally, frequently towards her throughout the day. But barring those basic efforts; Iām lacking in appropriate affirmations given to her (also lacking ideasā¦this whole relationship is still so foreign to me, and I feel as though I’m stillĀ navigating slowly over dark waters).Ā
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Ā Ā Ā I am working on a poem for her, but that is developing at a snail’s pace, as I want it to be as āperfectā as possible. I, of course, would really prefer the mastery of spiritual-projection to be an avenue of āofferingā for her, assuming that; by spending my own energy to come to her, she can conserve herās (which would have been otherwise spent coming to me). Thereby, both exchanging our energy mutually by that means, (Astrally).Ā I still just can’t seem to āclimb upā and out, or sit up and move-from yet. I hope it doesn’t take years of attempting; as I’ve read/heard from otherās practicing this process.
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Ā Ā Ā So as I was apologizing for behaving melodramatically and downtrodden about the (un-mathematically equated) laps of visitationsā¦which I now recognize isnāt actually ātrueāā¦.necessarily(?)…
…Well; almost immediately upon my verbal apology, I hear the instrumental beat, voice and some of the lyrics of Katy Perryās (2011) āE.T.ā song pop into my head. Iām somewhat aware that there are 2 versions of this particular song. One that has a male vocalist also (doing some sort of ārapā or whatever). Iāll listen/watch the other version (female vocals only) to read the lyrics later today. I need to get ready for work right now. But later Iāll write down the lyrics that stick out to me. Given the randomness of the song and the timing in which it popped into myĀ mind/thoughts… I can’t help but wonder; if maybe this is another message from her? From Mia?
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Ā Ā Ā I asked in a whisper, because of my uncertainty; is this actually a lyrical message from you, Mia, in the form of a song? If so; would you please communicate your presence to me in some sort of tangible way? A touch, anything? Normally I do not like to specifically ask her to expend her own energy at my request, in such a direct way (because I worry about how disrespectful the āaskā may come across)ā¦ but I was feeling a bit pessimistic, so I stubbornly disregarded my usual stance on those type of requests. She did, absolutely, make contact with me in an unexpected and unconsidered (by myself) method. However, in hindsight, not so unorthodox (~given the specific spirit-type that she and her kin are~) …which the details I’ll keep to myself for the time being. But in reading this journal entry in the future; Iāll know (remember) precisely what I refer.Ā I may add the specifics at a later time.Ā
Ā Ā Ā Having arrived back home from work and finding the lyrical video for E.T. (I’m ignoring the version in which there is a “ft. Kenya West” included). In the solo Katy Perry version, these lyrics definitely stood out to me, considering our interactions, development of our bond and past experiences together (I’ll try to bolden all the key lyrics):Ā
Ā Ā Ā Having arrived back home from work and finding the lyrical video for E.T. (I’m ignoring the version in which there is a “ft. Kenya West” included). In the solo Katy Perry version, these lyrics definitely stood out to me, considering our interactions, development of our bond and past experiences together (I’ll try to bolden all the key lyrics):Ā
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“Your touch, magnetizing. Feels like I’m floating, leaves my body glowing.”
“They say ‘be afraid’, you’re not like the others…”
“DifferentĀ DNA, they don’tĀ understand you.”
“You’re from a whole ‘nother world, a different dimension.
“You open my eyes, and I’m ready to go, lead me into the light.”
“Kiss me, kiss me, infect me with your love.” “Take me, take me…”
“Boy, you’re an alien, your touch so foreign. It’s supernatural. Extraterrestrial.”
“You’re so super sonic, wanna feel your powers…“
“Your kiss is cosmic, every move is magic.”
“You’re from a whole ‘nother world, a different dimension.“
“You open my eyes, I’m ready to go, lead me into the light.“
“This is transcendental, on another level… Boy, you’re my lucky star.”
“I wanna walk on your wavelength and be there when you vibrate.”
“For you, I’ll risk it all. All.”
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Ā Ā Ā The clarity of the message from Mia is unmistaken and undeniable in my very spirit. After hearing the words of this song, I have no doubt this was singled out to be a lyrical message to me.Ā 
March 25, 2025 - Morning
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