I take the first steps necessary, planning and preparing the materials and information that I’ll need to begin constructing a Tarot deck of my own making. I purchased several tarot & oracle decks that appealed to me, to use in the meantime. But I felt strongly that; I have the creative and artistic capacity to make (by my own hands, with my own art) a personalized tarot deck specifically tailored for me. ⁣⁣

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       In addition to preparing the materials necessary to accomplish this, I also began purchasing several books on mysticism, witchcraft, sigils, gnosticism and occultism. I felt that now was the opportunity to make up for all the time that had been lost to me, to gain knowledge in these areas that I’ve been repressing all my life. ⁣⁣⁣

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       In an effort to have a single location to consolidate everything new that I was on the precipice of learning/discovering; I have a gimoire handcrafted for me, tailored specifically to my intentions. At this point in my journey: I’ve been researching heavily and I’m beginning to disseminate the biases of those that feel alternate opinions between spirits/demons and other Greater beings. Such as Lilith, whom had definitely captivated my attention. ⁣

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       All the information in favor of Her, seemed to appeal directly towards me and the misfortunes I had faced in life. And She (it appeared) had the answers & solutions to these burdens. And I could not deny that certain events I had experienced thus far, seem to share a synchronistic connection to Her.

 

 

       The puzzle pieces in my mind were beginning to fall into place. So I had my grimoire (in respect/honor of Her) tailored to fit thematic elements, colors, symbolism, gemstones, that I felt resonate with Her… With Lilith.