I felt that I had been getting too far out of the habit of lighting both Lilith’s and Mia’s candle when I spoke to them at their altars; which (at least in the case of Mia) felt a bit neglectful, as an effort to maintain a worthy intentional connection. It’s a simple physical act; lighting a candle, yet it adds so much more to contact at an altar. So that night I decided I should rectify this and do so, committing myself to be more proactive about the act.

      After speaking at Lilith’s and extinguishing Her flame, I moved to Mia’s; apologizing for my lack of my direct and focused attention. Also; inquiring about the strangeness of having dreams (of late) that did not seem to contain individuals that resembled her energy. I was curious about her thoughts on the matter, her emotions. And I opened myself to receive her opinion, if she had one to share. As well as asking if there was anything I could do, to bring her happiness, contentment and joy. I told her that I missed her (despite her frequent visits anyways, heh) and I hoped that we would experience each other again soon; in dreams, astrally or otherwise. 

      But, to my surprise, the moment I extinguished her candle flame and the room fell into darkness, I could feel the heaviness in the air all around me. The darkness was like a cloak that blanketed the whole room, and it moved in the ceiling above me, the corners and along the floor at my feet and ankles. I didn’t dismiss it, simply acknowledged it as I climbed into bed. I settled myself, getting comfortable and waited to drift to sleep. 

      Yet before I could, I felt her press upon me heavily. My breath became heavy as well, and I focused on my inhales and exhales; and decided that I hadn’t verbally offered my breath, to make a wish in a while. And because I could sense her just then, I would so so, but also request a wish to be made in return for my breath, as well. So I did; offered my breath to Mia, inhaling hers and exhaled my wish back outwards. 

      Afterwhich she began to touch me across my back, like fingers sliding down my spine, sending rippling waves of tingles that vibrated around my ribs and the back of my neck. I lay on my back as this occured, but the rippling skin-prickles never traveled so far as my arm/legs or around to my chest. They seemed to just radiate outward from my back and stay confined to that area. She touched me several more times, like she had in the past; starting with low/little presses, that built up stronger and stronger with each touch. Each wave of cascading ripples becomes more potent that the one that preceded it. I thanked her for her presence, for hearing me at her flame, for coming to me and for touching me; acknowledging me and providing presence and comfort when I desired her company and companionship. 

      In the morning when I woke, I offered her an incense as I usually do, and thanked her again for her visit. Ensuring that I’ll be sure to add the encounter into our journal. Again, I reiterated that if there was something I could do to bring her happiness, comfort or joy; by any means let me know; and if it was in my power to provide, I would do so. As I sat there at her altar thinking about the previous night, the lyrics of a song she had sent me a while ago, re-entered my mind. [ She does this often, I’ve observed. She will call to mind the lyrics of previous songs she has shared with me; as if trying to re-communicate a message, from a song already familiar to both of us. ]   The song lyrics said: