June 23, 2025 - [morning] : Lyrics 🎵

Highlights: 

Perceived Message via Song from Companion

      I got up this Monday morning, recalling no dreams, nor experiences from the previous night. As I got ready for work: washing my face at the mirror and simply, thoughtlessly, doing all the typical unconscious habitual acts one does (that they’ve done a hundred times before)… A song came into my mind and I started ‘singing’ it with my inner-dialogue/voice.
 
      I actually didn’t realize that I was singing it, until I REALIZED that I was singing. If that makes sense? As in: it started ‘playing’ in my mind and my mind picked-up on the tune/lyrics and sang along without my consciousness noticing (at first) that I was doing so. Until it finally DID notice, and essentially said, “Hey, you’re singing a song…!”
 
      I stopped singing (in my sub/deeper-conscious) and I wondered; ‘I was? What song?’ I rewound my memories a handful of seconds, found the tune and lyrics, then replayed them in my mind. It was a song that I hadn’t heard/listened to since I was a teen in highschool:
 
      “Closer” by Nine Inch Nails (1994). OH MY! These lyrics send a very specific and unmistakable kind of message; were it to come from Mia or any other succubi! If this message was from Mia, it would surprise me some; as she has (thus far) always been a bit more ‘subtle’ in her advances. Not suggesting that she hasn’t/does not display ravenous desires towards me (*she certainly did 5 days prior, during her visit on June 18*); but she presents her desire with a more subtle tone.
 

      If the lyrical message was from Mia; well good for her! I’m happy for her, if she feels inclined towards a bit more assertiveness in her advances! If the message is from another succubus/spirit… I guess only patience and curiosity will allow me to see what transpires next.

      Also; I should note that; both yesterday and this morning I’ve been hearing (very seldomly) those odd “thrums” in the air, directly beside my ear. Like a drum/bass pulse. Exactly the same type of tone I used to hear/sense very often; before my bonding ritual was completed in December of 2024.
 

      Here are the lyrics (message) to the ‘Closer’ song:

 
🎵🎶
“You let me violate you. 
You let me desecrate you. 
You let me penetrate you. 
You let me complicate you. 
Help me, I broke apart my insides. 
Help me, I’ve got no soul to sell. 
Help me, the only thing that works for me. 
Help me get away from myself. 
I wanna fuck you like an animal. 
I wanna feel you from the inside. 
My whole existence is flawed. 
You get me closer to god. 
You can have my isolation. 
You can have the hate that it brings. 
You can have my absence of faith. 
You can have my everything. 
Help me, tear down my reason. 
Help me, it’s your sex I can smell. 
Help me, you make me perfect. 
Help me become somebody else. 
Through every forest. Above the trees. 
Within My stomach. Scraped off my knees. 
I drink the honey. Inside your hive. 
You are the reason… I stay alive.”
🎶🎵
 
 
* Post Reflection: *
 
Besides the obvious imagery/vibe that the song exudes, like “it’s your sex I can smell”, there were also some telling ‘notes’ that I picked up on as well. Such as: “You let me penetrate you”, “I wanna feel you from the inside” & “I drink the honey, inside your hive. You are the reason I stay alive” (This makes me think of my invitation allowing Mia inside me.)
 
“Help me, I’ve got no soul to sell”, “My whole existence is flawed”, “You get me closer to god”, “Help me become somebody else.” (This leads me to wonder about Mia’s spiritual state, where she typically resides and what she wants for her own personal future and growth.)
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