July 17, 2025 - [Night] : Travel & Dream
Highlights:
Meeting Gorgeous Powerful Astral Traveler(?) Spirit/Being,
Tending to Lilith’s Infant at a Spirit Gathering
An extraordinary, unique-appearance woman with long lower-back length hair. Half of which was pulled up into a ponytail (while the rest was loose and falling across her shoulders). Stylish bangs. Ultra-pure white color (extremely smooth, shiny silky white) with very thick streaked sections of shimmering deep dark-wine/scarlet red.
She was about a 1/2 foot shorter than I. Her ears had rings/clamps encircling her lobes all the way around (both ears). Lots of ornate and highly detailed earrings in gold and silver & brass. Must unique & amazing though, she had “jewelry” ornaments that orbited around her neck/shoulders/upper-body, like ‘necklace-accessories.’ They are brass-colored, highly intricate and functional multi-dimensional (like 4th dimensional or even deeper) astrolabe spheres.
The longer I stared into them, the deeper the spinning/moving/orbiting gears, parts, pieces and orbs seemed to vibrate and stretch on & on & on. Some of her floating decorative astrolabes are miniature representations of something called the “Tree of Eternity.” The others hovering (around her neck) also have the same hazy/ethereal “functioning” multi-dimensional orbs/gears technology as the standard self-contained astrolabes.
I offer her ice cream and cake(?) Some sort of smooth/creamy/icing-like dessert. And comment about how beautiful her hair is. She accepts the compliment with an air of polite distraction, while contemplating the desert idea. Her interest in me was as flimsy as; a simple acknowledgement that there was some stranger in the room (which, is to say; non-existent).
She declined my offer of sweets this time… She, apparently, just recently ate – and wasn’t hungry. And she was there in this “community building” more specifically to speak & converse with an older gentleman who also appeared to ‘belong’ there (like her). I, myself, was the anomaly in this place … I had somehow gotten in, but they didn’t seem overly concerned about it. But I still offered to bring and leave ice cream & cake/pudding often, if it meant that I could gain access and visit more frequently.
The older man seemed interested in the curious arrangement, and seemed to agree with my proposal. The woman hardly cared, she just wanted to speak with the very average/usual-looking older gentleman. [Then I woke ] …
[Back into a new dream]:
I was at some sort of a very busy/crowded large mall(?) or school, or place of learning with many long hallways and large classrooms with many desks, tables & chairs. There was a group of about 5-6 younger students (mid-teens) that were teasing and taunting me; maybe because I seemed “out of place” or unusual to be found in this type of place?
One of the girls, however, seemed to notice me or recognized me somehow because she (from the same group) wasn’t poking fun at me. She had bouncy long straight blond/auburn hair, a slim face and gentle doe eyes. She wore a preppy looking uniform-like shirt and soft cotton flannel-patterned pants. She waited until I moved past the crowd of others, before detaching herself from the group and joining me at my side.
She took my hand and began to lead me somewhere. She spoke only briefly (I can’t remember the words); but I remember feeling relieved to know that she was familiar with me and knew where to take me. She led me to a lecture hall, where a large group was gathering, in order to watch various others take the stage, to deliver some sort of individual/group performances (I guess?).
The student led me to a figure (feminine being) that was assuming the form of my ex-spouse. Except; she was a poised & stoic, 7 foot tall version of my ex. I easily knew this to be Lilith (as she has appeared to me in the past). The young girl seemed to disappear at that point (returning to her friends?). And then I was left there, with Lilith, my task for the evening plainly clear; I was to care for 2 children spirits this time.
One was my own spirit-son (with Mia), in the appearance of my biological son), but whom looked younger than what my material-plane son currently does now. He was standing beside Lilith. And the other child I was to care for; was a very very young spirit, between an infant and toddler. He was, when I first saw them, being held in Lilith’s arms, slumbering. I didn’t ‘know’ this baby-spirit; so I assumed he must belong to either Lilith, or another one of Her daughter’s children.
For the evening; I was acting as Her (Lilith’s) personal helpmate; making sure that my son stayed near me. While also holding, caring and tending to the infant spirit, who seemed mostly just sleepy and resting in my arms. We stayed for a while watching the performance, then Lilith indicated to me that she needed to attend to something taking place (administer help or assistance) elsewhere within the school/building. And she left.
After a while of watching both the stage and crowd coming in & out frequently, sitting down getting up/leaving, new people shuffling in and out seemingly endlessly… I started to feel a little restless. Like I knew (somehow) that my time would be up soon. So I wanted to find Lilith again, to give Her back the sleeping toddler, before I disappeared.
All three of us (my son, the baby resting his head on my shoulder & myself) left the auditorium and began to wander the hallways. But the entire building was so massive, and with so many people constantly moving around; it seemed hopeless to find Her. Eventually I ended up outside, and noticed my daughter (taking the form of my biological one) and sent my son racing off towards her, to have her pause a moment; so I can ask her a question. She did wait to give me a moment to approach her, to ask a question. But she didn’t know where Lilith was.
I appreciated & thanked her for stopping to allow me to ask though. Then she went on her way. And it was then, standing outside of the large school with a starless black canopy hanging in the ‘sky’; that I stopped “dreaming” and woke up…
[I felt, actually, a little anxious to know what became of my son & the infant/toddler.. when I woke? I hope they are okay. Did someone else find them and take over their care when I left?]
[Also new gnosis – when I saw Lilith, appearing as my ex (again), I suspect; She didn’t choose that form Herself. Because she wouldn’t ‘look like’ my ex for the others in the auditorium. So, I theorize; I, possibly, projected (unconsciously) my own visualized appearance over (onto) Her? Unless she just glamours uniquely different appearances, per person, all the time? Which seems like a vast energy expenditure.]
july 17, 2025
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