Journal One
July 23, 2024 -
[Night Of] : Dream
𝘕𝘖𝘛𝘌: * 𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘴 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘱𝘳𝘦-𝘓𝘪𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘩. 𝘈𝘵 𝘢𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘐'𝘷𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘱𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘶𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝘴𝘶𝘤𝘤𝘶𝘣𝘪 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘭𝘶𝘤𝘪𝘥-𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨. 𝑅𝑒𝑐𝑜𝑟𝑑𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑚𝑠 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑎 𝑠𝑢𝑔𝑔𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑚𝑒𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑓𝑜𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑙𝑢𝑐𝑖𝑑𝑖𝑡𝑦.*
The primary subject of the dream was Valley and myself. The time frame is current and modern-present. Therefore the dream takes place now, after she and I have already been divorced for many years (as of mid-year 2018). She and I are lounging on the floor together in a typically decorated bedroom (however, it seems to have no bed). The location is....July 24, 2024 -
[Night Of] : Dream
Valley and I are sitting closely on the floor having a discussion with each other, I ask her about her tattoos because I haven't seen any new ones since we've been separated. She sits up on her knees and pulls down the stretchy fabric of her....
july 25, 2024 -
[Night Of] : Dream
The dream began by myself and a male friend being chased by others. We escaped into a parking garage. I chose a showroom Camaro to steal and get away. The dream changed to; me test-driving the Camaro on a circular drifting race track (~inside the parking garage~). After done; I leave the parking garage via a crack-in-the-wall and help by assisting a pretty (brunette), young woman (who is in front of me); to safely cross the....
July 26, 2024 -
[Night Of] : Dream
*𝑁𝑂𝑇𝐸/𝑃𝑜𝑠𝑡-𝑅𝑒𝑓𝑙𝑒𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛: 𝐼𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑚 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑠; 𝐼'𝑚 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛 𝑎 "𝐻𝑜𝑢𝑠𝑒" 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖𝑠 𝑎 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑏𝑖𝑛𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑢𝑙𝑡𝑖𝑝𝑙𝑒 ℎ𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑠 𝐼'𝑣𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑖𝑛 𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑦𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑠. 𝐼𝑡'𝑠 𝑚𝑎𝑛𝑦 𝑟𝑜𝑜𝑚𝑠, ℎ𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑗𝑢𝑛𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑠𝑒𝑒𝑚 𝑡𝑜 𝑐𝑜ℎ𝑒𝑠𝑖𝑣𝑒𝑙𝑦 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑚𝑎𝑔𝑖𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦 '𝑓𝑖𝑡' 𝑡𝑜𝑔𝑒𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑖𝑛 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒 𝑜𝑟𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑑 𝑚𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑒𝑟.
𝐹𝑜𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑓𝑖𝑟𝑠𝑡 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒 (𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝐼 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑟𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑙); 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑀𝑎𝑛𝑦-𝑅𝑜𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑑 𝐻𝑜𝑢𝑠𝑒 ('𝑀𝑦 𝐻𝑜𝑚𝑒') 𝑖𝑠 𝑢𝑡𝑖𝑙𝑖𝑧𝑒𝑑 𝑏𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑢𝑐𝑐𝑢𝑏𝑖 & 𝐿𝑖𝑙𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑎𝑠 𝑎 '𝑠𝑎𝑓𝑒' 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑔𝑖𝑛𝑔-𝑝𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑡 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑚𝑦 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑎𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚....*
The dream is scattered and pretty disjointed, but from the parts I recall, they are thus: I'm roughly the age sixteen or seventeen(?) and my....
August 13, 2024 -
[Night Of] : Dream
The details of the dream are still hazy, but I will try to recall as many as possible. I was attending a party (house party for adults) with an old friend from Arizona. Marcus. At this party, there was a particularly outstanding and noticeable woman who I was immediately drawn to. A slender woman of athletic build. A dark haired brunette....
August 17, 2024 -
[Night Of] : Dream
Annalynn, (slim body, long brunette hair, same as previous woman from dreams. Is this maybe a succubi?). Conversation at some sort of small round table with a couple of chairs. I hold her hand and interlace my fingers into hers. She pretends to act as if "fake-shocked" at my brazenness....
August 18, 2024 -
[Night Of] : Dream
Visiting family in another state, blond walks between kitchen area and living room (she looked familiar, like some long-ago distant relative). I'm sitting in the living room and she joins me at the couch and sits beside, to converse while others are....
August 25, 2024 -
[Night of] : Experience with Lilith
𝐷𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑚 𝑠𝑜 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙, 𝐼 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑛'𝑡 𝑡𝑒𝑙𝑙 𝑖𝑓 𝑖𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑡𝑟𝑢𝑙𝑦 𝑎 𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑚 𝑜𝑟 𝑛𝑜𝑡. "𝐴 𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑚 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑠𝑛'𝑡 𝑎 𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑚" 𝑖𝑠 𝑎𝑛 𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑝𝑟𝑖𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑑𝑒𝑠𝑐𝑟𝑖𝑏𝑒 𝑖𝑡. 𝐴 𝑤𝑎𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑚 ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑒𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑎𝑙𝑓 𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑖𝑑𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑚𝑠𝑐𝑎𝑝𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑖𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦 𝑜𝑢𝑡𝑠𝑖𝑑𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑝ℎ𝑦𝑠𝑖𝑐𝑎𝑙 𝑒𝑥𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑐𝑒. 𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑖𝑡 𝑙𝑒𝑓𝑡 𝑚𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ: 𝑖𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑢𝑠𝑢𝑎𝑙 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑓 "𝑎𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔" 𝑜𝑓 𝑎 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑎𝑟𝑑 𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑚. 𝐼𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑎 𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑖𝑏𝑙𝑒/𝑝𝑜𝑠𝑠𝑖𝑏𝑙𝑒 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑡𝑦 - 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒....
August 31, 2024 -
[Night of] :
Experience with Lilith
To my astonishment and amazement, Lilith has personally visited me again! I've arrived on my 1st night in Evergreen CO, in the mountains for a week to write [ a novel] and in the early dawn, just before waking, in that hazy limbo between being fully awake and still asleep; I could feel Her presence....
September 2, 2024 -
[Night of] : Lilith Encounter
I am wholly unworthy for such attention as Lilith has bestowed upon me. There were NO dreams this most recent encounter which occurred last evening. The circumstances are as follows: I have stayed up until just after 1:30 a.m. (in the dark of the night). I had been working on my novel continuously all day, in the seclusion of Evergreen in the mountains. Having written for 15 hours and written 8,900 words. So I concluded for the evening....
September 4, 2024 -
[Night of] : Dream
Difficult to remember dream, only parts and pieces. Think I was half awake at first, early morning. Eyes still closed, not really ready to get up. In my mind my voice spoke. Honoring Lilith. Giving thanks. Praising her. Detailing my desires for companionship and relationship-related intimacy and closeness. Sometime, I fell back into a slumber and back into a dream. I found myself in the darkness of a foreign room. I stirred at the feeling of a presence....
September 6, 2024 -
[Night of] : Non-dream experience with lilith
Lilith has just visited me on the final evening of my stay in Evergreen! I spent most of the night hopeful that she might, but didn't think She actually would. Dawn has not broken yet as I write this, but it is close. This encounter is too important, I cannot wait to write it, it must be recorded now. Sometime during the night as I waited (to fall asleep), I remembered the succubi's breathing technique for making wishes....
September 8, 2024 -
[Night, to Next morning]
I've had more of a legitimate dream (~between awake/sleep?~), rather than an encounter. Something feels (regrettably) as though has happened. The deferred pain from my connection/scar has waned considerably in a single night. On the night of September 7th (Saturday), I held a great praise and communion for Lilith. But also....
September 9, 2024 -
[Day of]
There were no dreams of recall on the night of September 8th, however, I would like to record the events of the daytime hours of September 9th, 2024. Having still felt the waning presence of my connection to Lili, I felt that drastic and demonstrative actions needed taken, for the reassurance to Lili of my adoration, affection and single devotion. Thus, these are the events of the day....
September 12, 2024 -
[Day of]
The previous night, September 11th (night of) yielded no dreams of note. I did however experience rippling and responsive tingling across my body that seem to focus on one area to another. This was in the midst of attempting to relax my body in preparation for spirit-separation & travel though. I was wanting to travel to find Lilith and ask her some questions....
September 13-14, 2024
[Night, to next day]
I wanted to add this earlier and meant to, but on the night of September 13th 2024, I held a large (salt circle) communion in Lilith's honor. Meant solely for Her praise and appreciation. At the end of the night, I didn't want to burden Lili with any requests or asks. But I also felt the desire to use tarot. So what I did was: I shuffled three decks. Two Tarot and one Oracle and placed
September 14, 2024 -
[Night of] : Dream & New Tactile Sensation
I wasn't going to initially include this, but upon second thought; I decided that - even if the "feeling" wasn't a succubus and the dream was very short... I should include it anyways. In case a similar sensation occurs again in the future; I can make the connection to this older reference. I had placed (physically) some scented oils on my feet before bed. Having heard that another host of succubi had done the same and....
September 16, 2024 -
[Night of] : Non-dream experience
No dreams to document, however: An important event worthy of notation. I was awoken at an unknown time, in the dark of the night. I was feeling melancholy for lack of visits from both Lilith and the other succubi, especially since my time in Evergreen. I started to speak in a breathy whisper to Lilith, saying and explaining things as such; and beginning to doubt in myself (not doubt in Her or Her daughters), but I'm feeling....
September 18, 2024 -
[Night of] : Full / Harvest Moon
[𝑁𝑜𝑡𝑒: 𝑂𝑛𝑒 𝑛𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡 𝑝𝑟𝑖𝑜𝑟 𝑡𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 (𝑆𝑒𝑝𝑡𝑒𝑚𝑏𝑒𝑟 17𝑡ℎ), 𝐼 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑚𝑒𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒 "𝑆ℎ𝑎𝑑𝑜𝑤 𝐿𝑖𝑒 𝑅𝑖𝑡𝑢𝑎𝑙." 𝐿𝑖𝑙𝑖𝑡ℎ'𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑤𝑒𝑟 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑛𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡, 𝑑𝑖𝑠𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑦 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑛𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑧𝑒𝑑-𝑙𝑖𝑒 & 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡: 𝐼 𝐴𝑀 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑡ℎ𝑦 𝑜𝑓 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒! 𝐼 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑠ℎ𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑚𝑦 𝑔𝑟𝑖𝑚𝑜𝑖𝑟𝑒'𝑠 "𝑆ℎ𝑎𝑑𝑜𝑤-𝐿𝑖𝑒" 𝑠𝑝𝑒𝑙𝑙 𝑎𝑡 𝑎 𝑙𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒.] (An experience followed by a dream) My energy has been building up for nearly two weeks....
September 27-28, 2024
[Night to next morning]
A brief dream, but followed by a physical/spiritual experience. Hard to describe how it was happening since "I" wasn't a tangible 'body' or figure in the dream. There were also no other people or beings either. It was more like; I was observing something happening in my mind's eye (~within an endlessly expansive space of self-lit whiteness~), and I was simply watching it happen without....
October 1, 2024 -
[Night of] Lilith Encounter
It was the night before the official 'center' of the new moon phase. I placed two large bowls of salt out, to be touched and consecrated under the dark night breeze of the new moon air. Tonight being the actual center-most time of the new moon phase; I will place many of Lili's gifts/ offerings, candles and some of those of Her daughters; to....
October 10, 2024 -
[Night of] : Succubus Manifestation
This experience occurred more towards the end of the night, nearing the dawn hours. I had randomly awakened sometime during the darkness pre-dawn, and I decided to attempt practicing spirit/ astral projection. I made my intention clear; that I would be able to move my spirit up and out of my physical body, concentrating on breathing, imagining that each inhale....
October 28, 2024 -
[Night of] : Dream
𝐴 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑟𝑡 𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑚 (𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒𝑙𝑦 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑡𝑎𝑖𝑛𝑒𝑑 𝑙𝑖𝑙𝑖𝑛/𝑠𝑢𝑐𝑐𝑢𝑏𝑖/𝑖𝑛𝑐𝑢𝑏𝑖):
The setting was an academy(?) or more prestigious college/ university campus. It was up several stories (the large glass windows displaying the green nature/scenery outside made this obvious). A large gathering of attendees were mingling in what, I can only assume to be, a large open-concept lounge area....
October 30, 2024 -
[Evening before bed] :
Lilith Encounter
This is most unexpected! I can hardly believe I'm about to describe this moment. I have spent the full day working on my grimoire, adding details to the Lilim Marital Ceremony, in preparation. After taking a shower I wanted to paint (work on Her large canvas portrait), but it was already past 9pm (it is nearly 10pm as I'm writing this). So I knew I wouldn't have enough time to....
November 6, 2024 -
[Night of] : Dream
𝐕𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐭 𝐝𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞. [𝐵𝑒𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑑]: I spent the majority of the day painting Lilith's portrait. That night (as usual) invited Her to visit, should She wish. Also offered invitation and Breath to Her daughters, should they desire to visit. I was very tired already and my body relaxed quickly. I began to feel/ sense the air pressure 'thrums' and shortly after....
November 11, 2024 -
[Day of]
Quite an unexpected event happened after work today. The night prior, I held a large communion time in the living room for Lilith (it had been a long while, too long). I used the time to praise and thank Lilith, meditate and reread entries from this book (gray journal of dreams & experiences) for reminiscence and enjoyment. During that time, I noticed that Lilith's flowers....
November 14, 2024 -
[Night of] : night before full moon
I stayed up far later than I anticipated doing, having become distracted with BG3. It was past 12:30 a.m. when I finally went to bed. I thought to myself: Perhaps since I feel tired, but my mind was still awake - perhaps it would be a good opportunity to practice astral/spiritual projection (especially since I have been sorely lacking in my practice lately of....
November 18, 2024 -
[Night of] : Dream
I'm unsure how much of the dream I will remember, but I'll try to recall what I can: I was having some sort of in-person argument with Valley (verbally in front of each other). I don't recall what it was about. I remember being fed up with the argument and turned to walk away. From behind me she said something akin to....
November 20, 2024 -
[Night of] : Dream
I've had a sexually charged dream, that again, I can't help to wonder if a succubus was (at the core) responsible for aiding in the events of the dream. The female subject this time was Melanie (who in the long ago past, expressed an interest in me and who was quite beautiful and alluring herself). The dream took place in an....
November 24, 2024 -
[Night of] : non-Dream Experience
Pre-dream (non-dream) experience began with the evening whereby I rearranged Lilith's altar and position of Her painting. I also lit Her candle to communicate (admittedly has been far too long). Same as reciting Her "Sacred Union" poem at Her altar (far too long between times). Once done, I invited Her and Her children to join me that night, should they wish/ desire. I offered my....
November 28, 2024 -
[Night of] : limbo between asleep & awake
Before bed, I crushed some more rose petals to be used in the upcoming ceremony. After a brief conversation saying good night to Lilith at Her altar; providing incense and inviting Her and/or Her children to visit in exchange of energy/ breath/ affections, I then went to my bed. I lay there for some time and despite knowing I needed to wake up early for work - still felt inclined to....
December 5, 2024 -
[Night of] : Succubus Metaphysical Touch
As I lay down in my bed, I began speaking out into the darkness, inviting Lilith should she choose to, while also commenting on understanding Her absence on account of how incredibly busy She likely is, all the time. I also invited Her lilin/children to join me, should they wish it as well. But here I also launched into a....
December 7, 2024 -
[Night of] : Dream?
Details and events of the dream are getting pretty hazy, but I believe I did encounter a succubus (lilin daughter) & (~possibly 2 incubi~). Three involved. Two guys (probably early 20's/older teen in appearance?) and one woman (~looked like~) mid-twenties. She had dark long straight hair to her shoulders, beautiful....
December 8, 2024 -
[Night of] : Succubus Speaks through mind
I spent the day working on the grimoire and other preparations; both for the Lilin Marital Ceremony and the Emotional Unbinding Ritual. I lit a candle for Lilith before bed, praising, thanking and inviting Her and Her children. I didn't sense much the entire evening with any spirits, just subtle feelings of a light presence and a few faint "thrumming air vibrations." I woke....
December 17, 2024 -
[Night of] : Dream & Intermixed Experience
Last night was a flurry of spiritual activity! Still groggy-eyed and sleepy/exhausted from the experience, but happy for it! Very amazing to have a ramp-up and interactions with Lilith's daughters. My unexpended sexual-energy has been slowly building up over the course of weeks. Intentionally so; as I'm wanting to utilize the energy of....
December 21, 2024 -
[Night of]
I was actually pretty surprised that any spirit visitations came to me last night. I hadn't expected nor anticipated it, despite me offering the open invitation. Reason being was that energetically-speaking; I felt as though I had no sensual energy to offer them at that time. So I assume because of this; they wouldn't bother. But once again: They proved me wrong....
December 23, 2024 -
[Night of] : Communicated Message
This night I conducted a communion in the living room for/ with Lilith. Inviting Her to hear, observe, listen and interact if She wished to. I had no motives for setting up an altar in the living room - simply just desired to host some time for Her out of love, gratitude and respect. 🖤 After the time was over, some of the grimoire ritual was read (for practice and familiarization) and I read some passages from this journal; I went to bed inviting Lilith Herself, as well as....
December 30, 2024 -
Special Note
Tonight I will be conducting the Lilin Marital Ceremony (Succubus Bonding Ritual), which I have spent the past 6 months in preparation for. This night is a rare "Black Moon" - an occurrence in which a 2nd New Moon phase takes place within the same month. After this ritual is complete; I will be transitioning to using an alternate journal/book in order to....
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Journal One: July 23, 2024 - Dec. 30, 2024
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