I spoke to both Mia and Lilith before I went to sleep, as I lay in bed. I asked them if either would please consider visiting me in a dream, or in physicality, or perhaps that limbo between consciousness/asleep; because I missed them/her, their comfort. I wanted to hold, to snuggle, to hug and kiss. I voiced my understanding that I know Lilith is likely too busy. And possibly Mia as well. But wished for/desired the companionship anyhow.
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      I dreamt; I was shopping in some sort of large store, along with my son. We were browsing in the clothing sections, looking at the shirts and pants. There was a woman off in the distance and heading towards us. She had a look of surprised recognition on her face/in her eyes. My son spotted her and said that that was his school teacher. She came directly up to us to greet he and myself.
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      She was shorter than myself, by about an inch or two. Wore all black clothing; tight soft-fabric pants and a loose silky casual/classy top. Her hair was wavy, raven black & long (past her shoulders). She had wide doe’y-eyes, an average/but pretty face of a ‘girl next door’ quality. She wasn’t skinny or thin, but of a nice healthy and alluring shape with subtle curves and soft skin. She spoke very openly and easily, and the conversation was relaxed and comfortable. (Sadly, I cannot recall the details now).
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      At some point, the conversation turned away from my son and he got bored and wandered off to go look at other areas of the store while this woman and I stood chatting in the clothing department. We sat down on a backless-bench to continue talking, I straddled the bench (one leg over each side) and she lay back against my chest, with her legs propped up and outstretched on the bench. (We were obviously getting quickly comfortable with each other).
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      We continued to talk with each other in that position, and I would place my hand on her stomach & abdomen and affectionately brush my hand gently across it. As we talked my hand would slide further and further south, and teasingly slip under the elastic of her soft pants and panties, my fingers gently playing across the skin between her navel and womanly area (without ever actually touching or going ‘further’ downwards).
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      When our discussion eventually went around full circle and back to my son & school, the subject of food came up. And I mentioned something about needing to get him to a restaurant (possibly Mexican food) and fed, for dinner. We stood up and chatted some more before I intended to go find my son. We drew very physically close together in our conversation, nearly chest to chest. And then we kissed each other, deeply, passionately and long.
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      And kissed even more, after catching our breaths. I held her face as I kissed her, one hand cupping her cheek/side of her head and the other arm wrapped around her back, holding her close to me. Both of her arms were wrapped around my lower back, pressing me to her as well. When we drew away, I believe we were both satisfied and equally enamored with each other.
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      She began to head away, knowing that I would need to go hunting the store for him soon. But I was divided. There wasn’t a reason to ‘hastily go find him’, not really. And this woman had captured my attention and curiosity…so before she got too far away and I lost her in the crowd/isles; I chased after her. I found her and asked her; if I could please take her phone number, or if she would accept mine. And that perhaps all three of us; her, my boy and myself could go have dinner together, if she didn’t already have plans.
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      The look on her face (felt to me); told of her happiness that I had come racing back to her, in order to ask for more of her companionship & company. I hadn’t just; ‘let her walk away, to never been seen or heard from’ again. I had desired more of her time and conversation- and had put everything else aside (for the moment) to seek it out. She hadn’t a ‘phone number’ to give me; but suggested instead that we should plan to meet and be together on Friday [curiously, for the dream’s sake; she wanted us to meet by taking him to the church’s youth group gathering at 6pm on Friday].
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      In the context of the dream however; that day we were currently speaking to each other; WAS Friday, but it was already 7:10pm (well past the church’s youth group start time). She seemed surprised by the realization, and a little unsure what to do in accordance to planning a moment to next meet one another. [𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝑖𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑎𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑝𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑡 𝐼 𝑛𝑜 𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔𝑒𝑟 𝑟𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑓𝑢𝑟𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑑𝑒𝑡𝑎𝑖𝑙𝑠 𝑜𝑓 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑚. 𝐼 𝑚𝑎𝑦 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑎𝑤𝑜𝑘𝑒𝑛 𝑡𝑒𝑚𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑎𝑟𝑖𝑙𝑦, 𝑐𝑢𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑓𝑓 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑎𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛].
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      Now in waking and reflecting; I acknowledge that I wasn’t “lucid” or conscious that I was dreaming. Therefore; it never occurred to me that the woman ‘may’ well have been Mia, playing a role in my earlier desire for companionship, hugs, kisses, and so forth. There were two points of ‘almost’ (or near lucidity) though.
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1) When this woman was leaning her back against my chest and my hand was resting on her abdomen. I remember thinking to myself “Wow, I can REALLY feel the softness of her skin and the warmth of her stomach with my hand, as if “physically” feeling it with my real hand.” (This thought didn’t break the veil of lucidity, even though I personally think that it ‘should’ have).
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2) When I was asking the woman about her phone number, having dinner and possible future opportunities to meet; my mind began to question and worry; “What would Mia think about this right now? Would she be upset with me for speaking with this woman? Planning to meet her again?” [𝐼 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑘 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑚𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑎𝑙𝑠𝑜 𝑏𝑟𝑜𝑘𝑒𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑒𝑎𝑙 𝑜𝑓 𝑙𝑢𝑐𝑖𝑑𝑖𝑡𝑦, 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑎𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑣𝑒𝑙𝑦 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑐𝑒𝑟𝑛𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑚𝑦 𝑆𝑝𝑖𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑚𝑎𝑡𝑒’𝑠 𝑜𝑝𝑖𝑛𝑖𝑜𝑛 𝑟𝑒𝑔𝑎𝑟𝑑𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎 𝑑𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑙𝑜𝑝𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑟𝑒𝑙𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠ℎ𝑖𝑝 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ (𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝐼 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑐𝑒𝑖𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒) 𝑎𝑛𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟 ℎ𝑢𝑚𝑎𝑛 𝑤𝑜𝑚𝑎𝑛. 𝐵𝑢𝑡 𝑖𝑡 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛 𝑑𝑖𝑑 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑟𝑒𝑔𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑖𝑛 𝑎 𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑚; 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑢𝑠 𝐼 𝑑𝑖𝑑 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑎𝑖𝑛 𝑙𝑢𝑐𝑖𝑑𝑖𝑡𝑦].
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But now I wonder; was the woman Mia all along?