Tonight is a full moon. And I have decided to have a communion with both Lilith and Mia. This will be the first major arrangement since the Bonding Ceremony on December 2024. But my entry today is more related to my personal reflections regarding something Mia said to me on February 3rd, 2025. She said:

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“𝑊𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑀𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑗𝑢𝑛𝑔𝑙𝑒, 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝐼 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑏𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑑𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑡.”
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      And…
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“𝑃𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑑𝑜 𝑛𝑜𝑡 ℎ𝑜𝑙𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘. 𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑚𝑒.”
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      I have been contemplating these words for over a week now. And I have an observation.
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      To the 1st, I ask myself; “What is a jungle like (to me)?” and I think of it this way:
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𝑼𝒏𝒕𝒂𝒎𝒆𝒅, 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒅, 𝒇𝒖𝒍𝒍 𝒐𝒇 𝒔𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅𝒔, 𝒎𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕, 𝒅𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒆𝒓 𝒉𝒊𝒅𝒅𝒆𝒏 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒔. 𝑻𝒆𝒂𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒔; 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒑𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒅𝒂𝒕𝒐𝒓𝒔, 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒑𝒊𝒅𝒆𝒓𝒔 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒘𝒆𝒃𝒔. 𝑽𝒆𝒓𝒅𝒂𝒏𝒕, 𝒃𝒆𝒂𝒖𝒕𝒊𝒇𝒖𝒍 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒂𝒍𝒔𝒐 𝒅𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒆𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒏𝒂𝒗𝒊𝒈𝒂𝒕𝒆. 𝑹𝒂𝒊𝒏𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒓𝒎𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒖𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒍𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈. 𝑾𝒆𝒕, 𝒃𝒐𝒕𝒉 𝒘𝒂𝒓𝒎 𝒎𝒐𝒊𝒔𝒕𝒖𝒓𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒄𝒐𝒍𝒅 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒆𝒔𝒔 𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕𝒔 (𝒖𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒄𝒂𝒏𝒐𝒑𝒚 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒓𝒆𝒆𝒔).
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      If that is how I envision the jungle…
      Then… then this is how I envision the desert:
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𝑸𝒖𝒊𝒆𝒕, 𝒔𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒏𝒆 𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔. 𝑬𝒙𝒑𝒆𝒏𝒔𝒊𝒗𝒆 𝒗𝒊𝒆𝒘. 𝑾𝒂𝒓𝒎 𝒈𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒍𝒆 𝒈𝒖𝒔𝒕𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝒘𝒊𝒏𝒅, 𝒃𝒍𝒐𝒘𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒔𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂𝒄𝒓𝒐𝒔𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒉𝒐𝒓𝒊𝒛𝒐𝒏. 𝑳𝒊𝒇𝒆; 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒉𝒊𝒅𝒅𝒆𝒏 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒖𝒏’𝒔 𝒘𝒂𝒓𝒎/𝒉𝒐𝒕 𝒓𝒂𝒚𝒔. 𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒕 𝒄𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒊𝒓𝒂𝒈𝒆𝒔 𝒐𝒇𝒇 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒊𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒏𝒄𝒆. 𝑬𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚 𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘 𝒊𝒔 𝒂 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒓𝒆𝒑𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒗𝒆 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒕. 𝑽𝒂𝒔𝒕 𝒂𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒆𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔. 𝑺𝒐𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒚 𝒑𝒆𝒂𝒄𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂 𝒒𝒖𝒊𝒆𝒕 𝒔𝒐 𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂𝒃𝒔𝒐𝒍𝒖𝒕𝒆; 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒂𝒍𝒎𝒐𝒔𝒕 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 ‘𝒔𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅 𝒐𝒇 𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔.’ 𝑨 𝒅𝒆𝒆𝒑 𝒔𝒆𝒂 𝒐𝒇 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒔 𝒂𝒕 𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕, 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒇𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓-𝒆𝒙𝒑𝒆𝒏𝒔𝒊𝒗𝒆, 𝒂𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒍𝒆𝒔𝒔 𝒘𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝒔𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒅𝒖𝒏𝒆𝒔 𝒃𝒆𝒍𝒐𝒘 𝒊𝒕. 𝑰𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒃𝒆𝒂𝒖𝒕𝒊𝒇𝒖𝒍 𝒊𝒏 𝒊𝒕𝒔 𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒍𝒍, 𝒔𝒊𝒎𝒑𝒍𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒒𝒖𝒊𝒆𝒕 𝒏𝒂𝒕𝒖𝒓𝒆.
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      That is how I envision the desert. If this was Mia’s way to describe herself to me (through me), then I love her ever-more. Ever, ever, more.
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      And as for her second statement; I don’t think that pleasure applies to things of a ‘sexual’ nature alone. I think she means All things I find to be pleasurable/enjoyable/relaxing. I think she wants me to place less focus on what I can do to please her… And instead ensure that I am happy, content and pleased for myself first… Then I will better be able to know her, or get to know her and understand her.
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      I will try. I love her. But I will try to shift focus, if she suggests; in order to “know her.”