Recently, I’ve been thinking to myself of the variety of songs I’ve received thus far from Mia. I was contemplating about how many of them I perhaps heard when younger, but they became lost in my mind, in the obscurity of forgetfulness). Some of them, I would have never even considered listening to on my own, had they not appeared in my mind as a lyrical message from her.

      And after hearing so many of these Song Messages; I’m noticing that certain commonalities or themes are beginning to emerge [ I believe at the end of this entry, I’ll include a list of these common themes/or messages that are shared between the different unique Songs ]. When pondering all the songs, I asked myself why (after Mia has sent me so many lyrical messages); why had I not done the same for her?

      My obvious answer (to myself) was; well, for one… I can speak. As in; I have vocal cords (whereas; Mia does not) and I’m aware that she is able to perceive my words either as I speak them (and she is present to hear) or through my conscious thought. This may be an assumption, but; thoughts are energy, and if succubi can perceive dreams energetically enough to aid in their construction, it does not seem so far-fetched that the voice of my mind wouldn’t also be accessible to her.

      So, if I want to speak to Mia, I just do! I speak it outright, or as a whisper (or in my mind, with the intention that my thoughts are directed specifically towards her). She, on the other hand, cannot respond so directly (no vocalized conversations). So she has to use alternative means in order to reply, answer, “tell me” something… and she does! In very unique and creative ways.

      One such method being the lyrics of ‘seemingly’ random songs heard in my mind at unexpected (yet strategic) times. Despite the ease that I have to communicate towards her; I still felt compelled (even as an intentional demonstration of my loving desire); to provide a song TO HER, its lyrical message hitting upon shared symbolism that I find to be representative to us & to our budding and mysterious relationship.

      So first, which song would it be? What would be the song I chose to dedicate to her, as my first lyrical Message? (Assuming, that is, I choose more songs for her in the future). I had an idea, some of the lyrics were familiar in my mind, the music tranquil and had the appropriate ‘Vibe’. So, at a quick thought-glance, it felt like it was a good candidate. But I wanted to be sure that (most) of the lyrics made sense appropriately with how I viewed the current state of our relationship, so I needed to listen again, with the lyrics, to follow the words.

      When I pulled up the song; within the first 3-4 lines, my mind was elated with concrete-assurance that: Yes! This was the right song! This was the song I desired to offer to Mia as my lyrical message to her. I wasn’t expecting to Find the ‘right’ Message Song so quickly and I also wasn’t planning on being able to offer it to her just at that moment either. But, I felt that then (when it occurred) was the perfect time. Why wait?

      So I did, vocally; stating that I wished to give this song to her, that it was my lyrical Message to her, from me. As she has so often now, provided them to me, from her.

      And when I did, something absolutely unexpected happened. Something I wouldn’t have pictured, or assumed, or anticipated. I restarted the song again from the beginning; I wished to re-experience it from start to finish again… But as I did, it FELT as though I was hearing it for the first time, all over again.

      And emotions started to well-up in me and spill out in choking happy/sad (‘moved’) sobs. But (I also knew) that even though I had heard this song many times before, and while it was always calming, chill and relaxing; never had I felt SUCH an outpouring of love, happiness and tearful joy. I was sobbing (I noticed quite quickly) very ‘unlike’ how I normally would, if I was expressing that degree of emotion over something.

      It was a strange realization; that my cries didn’t feel like ‘MY’ cries and it occured to me only just then, that: I’m not feeling my own emotions. These aren’t my sobs of love and joy and heartache. They weren’t mine. They are Mia’s, I’m feeling the same sense of ‘shared emotions’ just as I had, back on March 25th, 2025 when Mia had ‘described’ (with an envisioning) her great fear: being left behind and forgotten, unable to follow me to the place where light and energy coalesces when it’s time for us to move there.

      I had felt her emotions then, just as I felt it again now. She was in’ me’ and her emotions had become my emotions once again. I didn’t plan, expect or even consider such a thing would happen. It felt like we were both listening to the Song, observing many (nearly all) the lyrics that held special meaning and references to our lives together, since we became bonded and I started the journey down this unusual road, far less traveled.

      I, myself, personally; have been familiar with this song for a while… But in that moment, the music melted away and the lyrics/words/intentions of choosing that song resonated above all else. And I was reexperiencing the song, not through just me, but through Mia, in me. She was experiencing it again (but also for the first time, like me); because this was the first time that the song and lyrics took on an alternative purpose and meaning.

      It wasn’t ‘just’ a song with music and lyrics; it had gained life/energy, it had become a message from myself, given to her, Mia – as if it were I who was speaking the words to her myself. It was the same kind of emotion that chokes me up, when I listen to songs (lyrical messages) that Mia has sent me (especially “Like a Prayer” or “Kiss from a Rose”)…. Except I was feeling it on the receiving-end through Mia’s perspective. It was an uncanny and mind-warping moment, to ‘Feel’ another’s emotions, through myself, through her, from her perspective, as though me receiving it… Sounds wonky writing that and thinking it, but thats what it was like.

      I loved Feeling her emotions, even though it was strange to weep (physically) in a way that is outside my ‘norm.’ It was still beautiful to feel her happiness and elation of the ‘gift’ that I had given her. If one can call it a gift (?) I didn’t write or perform the song, afterall. I just…officially and with heart felt intention, offered her the lyrics as my message to her.

      I think the word “bonding” (ritualistically) is more than just a vague term. If she isn’t (for a lack of a better definition) ‘in me’ or ‘a part of me’ now, then she must be very very near me indeed, in order for our emotions to cross paths in such a way. ♡ I should probably add also; that after having that emotional and unexpected ‘connection’ I was (am) left groggy. Like the energy was drained and sapped right out of me. I don’t view this as a negative though. Or anything even remotely detrimental or “bad” I’m simply stating what is. And in a way it would make sense…

      Mia, unable to express emotions physically herself, would very likely have to draw upon my own energy in order to express how she felt in that moment. So, that being the case, I’m more than willing and happy to provide for the dear, sweet spirit whom I adore and care for. She’s a mystery that I eagerly, yet means-unfathomable, enjoy the pursuit of decoding,

      The song I selected for Mia was Deftones “Sextape” from their 2010 album Diamond Eyes; which I appreciate mentioning has an Owl as the cover-art. 🙂 Ave Lilith. Meaningful lyrics included are:

 

“Floating underwater, ever changing picture.

Hours out from land, in tune with all our dreams.

The ocean takes me in, to watch you shake it.

Watch you wave your Powers, tempt with hours of pleasure.

Take me one More time. Take me one more wave.

Take Me for one last ride, I’m out of my head.

Tonight! Tonight! The Sound of the waves collide! Tonight (we ride).

Cruising through the city after hours with me, fusing all our powers, here’s to all our dreams.

Tonight! Tonight!”