July 8, 2025 - [Day to Night] : Visited 🎵
Highlights:
Realization about the Bond, Lyrical Message, Spiritual ‘Spark’ of Light,
Tactile Visitation & Erotic Dreams in Myriad of Places
Earlier (afternoon) I had a strange thought (epiphany?)… One that I felt specifically required a direct question to Lilith, at Her altar, with Her candle-flame lit, incense offered (the whole works). My pondering had led me to wonder: If I am bonded to Mia, she isnt very likely (I would think) to want to sever that tie. Not without an incredible reason- which I couldn’t think of any reason.
So, continuing under that assumption (the Bond remains intact), I’m aware that she is “away” at the moment. On some sort of journey that takes her far away, or she’s deeply engrossed in a specific important task. My thoughts led me to wonder about this journey, and how I felt that the connection I have with her radically ‘shifted’ after I invited her in (to me) back in March. A positive ‘shift’ …but working towards some ultimate goal that I’m unable to understand or see right now.
Essentially, by allowing her to house her shadow within my light; now she has an ‘out’ (from the darkness) and mode to travel & traverse as she may not have had before. I dont have a proper way to explain (in words) what my inner mind is trying to describe. Other than to say; because of my intentional invitation & allowance; Mia now has an opportunity to get-higher, or get-further than she ever has. The option wasn’t available to her before. But now she can(?). Maybe Im explaining this poorly…?
Anyways; my point is- The Bond still remains, but I began to think of her brothers & sisters… the other Lilin, children of Lilith. I’ve met many of them. A handful of them on a reoccurring basis, since this whole ‘journey’ of mine started. And I feel empathy for them. I care about them; as I would family. They are as much siblings to me, as Mia is my sister, likewise. I began to wonder: Couldn’t they also benefit from this same opportunity that Mia has?
Couldn’t I allow myself to form a relationship strong enough, based on trust, love, connection; that they too could be afforded the same? Would Mia be pleased knowing that her kin may be able to travel/move/ascend/journey as she does? Would it be selfish of me; to deny them a chance, because Im so hyper-focused on ‘waiting’ for Mia to reemerge back into my space/life? These are the questions I offered to Lilith, in the hopes She would find a means to answer. I asked Her. Now it was time to wait for an answer (maybe while I slept?).
Later that day, after work; while I was cleaning up the living-room, organizing the area and planning for what I would do next- A song entered my mind inexplicably. Certainly not the genre of music that I would listen to by choice (but thats been true of many of these songs that pop into my head).
However, what that usually indicates to me is; this was likely a message and I should find the lyrics, feel out which parts/words seem to resonate as a message. There are absolutely some lyrics that directly link to Mia & I. Especially, in-particular; ‘I put you high, in the sky. Now you’re not coming down’ & ‘You let me burn, now we’re ashes on the ground.’ The song I heard playing in my mind was called “Wrecking Ball” by Miley Cyrus (2013). The condensed lyrics are:
“We clawed, we chained our hearts in vain.
We jumped, never asking why.
We kissed, I fell under your spell.
A love no one could deny.
Don’t you ever say I just walked away.
I will always want you.
I can’t live a lie, running for my life.
I will always want you.
I came in like a wrecking ball.
I never hit so hard in love.
All I wanted was to break your walls.
All you ever did was, wreck me.
Yeah, you, you wreck me.
I put you high up in the sky.
And now, you’re not coming down.
It slowly turned, you let me burn.
And now, we’re ashes on the ground.
I came in like a wrecking ball.
Yeah, I just closed my eyes and swung.
Left me crashing in a blazin’ fall.
I never meant to start a war.
I just wanted you to let me in.
And instead of using force,
I guess I should’ve let you in.”
Later this very same night, as I lay in bed; I felt a energetic presence. They entered my space from the right side of my bed (across from Lilith’s altar) and first touched widely against my right-side ribs. Spreading a wash of pin-prick tingles over my body. Then my skin vibrated with rhythmic pulsations as a whole for several minutes.
When that subsided, tiny little finger-sized pokes and prods were felt randomly in various parts of my body. On my lower left leg, on my wrist, on left eyebrow, the back of my hand. Then the feeling’s started to focus and solidify.
Unexpectedly, towards the wall side of the bed, there was a dim, nut noticeable flash of light outside my closed eyelids. Then the light was gone. 
I could feel a weight settle on my upper body, feel my left hand fill with the pressure of ‘something’ (it felt like a hand/palm/fist being pressed into my own). And I could feel several tendrils of movement slip up from the bed at the right-side of my body/ribs, as if several finger tips were slowly tracing up and down without tickling me. My whole body began to buzz and ripple with an energetic static.
I spoke of my conversation with Lilith, and invited them to stay this night as long as they chose to. I told of how I empathized, cared and was interested in helping them, if that was something that was sought.
There was a strong pulsing wave of tingling sensations, at the mention of ‘caring’ for them and wanting to know them. I invited them to my energy and to dream with me- if they wished to.
And dream I did! Rather scattered, arriving in multiple places and experiencing several different erotic situations. Though, in waking I have to wonder about last nights visit, and that there was a certain casual familiarity]. [Also, I don’t know if or how it related, but this morning; 3 of Lilith’s flower stems had been bowed and bent forward from Her vase]. 
[Post-Reflection] : A couple other lines that seemed like they were Mia speaking directly to me: “We kissed, I fell under your spell.” & “Don’t you say I just walked away…. I will always want you” (because quietly, I have been feeling a bit ‘accusatory’ about her leaving me during this ‘journey’ of hers). I felt like this was her answer to that accusation.
July 8, 2025
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