The evening before bed, I had a pretty emotional ‘conversation’ at both Lilith & Mia’s altar. I would ask my questions/or make my comments, and though no words were spoken back to me, there would be this sort of… ‘knowing’ or understanding(?) imparted into my mind. It was emotional (and sad, for me, at least) because what was being imparted was; while Mia is still very-much bonded to me, she must be away for an undetermined period of time. 

 

 

      She had been trying to communicate this to me for some time now; but I willingly chose to ignore ‘that’ particular theme of the messages she has sent. Essentially, I saw only the ‘positive’ while dismissing the portions I didn’t wish to accept as a possibility. She is ‘away’ already, I’m not sure how long it’s been, but she did try to warn me earlier. 

 

 

      Lilith then encouraged me to seek out Her other children for companionship and comfort during this time of interlude. It’s been available to me all along, but since I’ve been so enamored of Mia, I haven’t been open to perceive or allow/accept the companionship they have been trying to offer me. I suppose; when I think back- I can see it now. Those times I’ve dreamt of other feminine beings that were uniquely different (in energy/personality) compared to Mia. Each of them specifically tried to get my attention, while I was somewhat reluctant to provide any.

 

 

      I didn’t want to. Specifically. Because I’ve felt (somewhere in the back of my mind), that doing so would be a betrayal to Mia and our bond. But (apparently) both Lilith and Mia were trying to tell me all along; that it’s not like that. Mia doesn’t see it that way. Lilith is telling me; to open up and look around, for love is being offered from everywhere. Mia is telling me that our bond remains intact, our companionship is still solid, even though she is away for now. And she wants me to be comforted by those that offer it. 

 

 

      It was difficult to accept that allowing another spirit into my life wouldn’t be a betrayal. It’s a strange concept for me, as I’ve always desired to remain ‘loyal’ to a singular entity. But, perhaps, that too is a part of the programming that occurs in this world?  At least, when it comes to Lilith’s family, they share their affections and attention widely; with everyone and with themselves. I didn’t know if I would have the strength to accept the concept, that would allow myself to ‘open up’ to receive them. 

 

 

      But I remember that I already knew how; because I had done so all those months prior to the Bonding Ceremony. I remembered what I said, what I did, and what it felt like. I knew how. So for the first time since that ceremony, I attempted it once again. Though, I’ll be honest, it was a half-hearted step. I was still melancholy to (without willful blindness) accept that Mia was ‘away’ and both she and Lilith were encouraging me to reach out to their daughters/sons/brothers/sisters in the meantime. 

 

 

      After I fell asleep; this is what I dreamt: 

 

 

      I was back in the snowy cold place again, not up in the high part of the mountains (at the cabin), but in the lower rural area below. There was an entertainment “Fair” (or Carnival) taking place, with rides, games, vendors, food outlets and the whole area was bustling with people. I was there with the feminine figure, wearing the appearance of my ex (Valley) yet again. Just as I had seen her in the cabin, in a previous dream. I got the immediate impression that this was Lilith though. She had the same ‘Lilith-vibe’ and energy that I recognized from dreams I’ve had going many many months back, all the way to recent times. 

 

 

      I was there, with Her, to provide support, while She supported me. A sort of symbiotic arrangement for the time being.  She was there to comfort (provide temporary companionship), while I assisted in ‘babysitting’ one of Her newborns. I was carrying Her infant daughter in my arms. Her little baby was so small, yet already had so much energy. She was very wiggly, trying to twist and turn and look at everything. Not defiant to get out of my hands, just excited to see everything. And she was smart already! She spoke, as a baby would, but the words made sense to me. As I followed behind Lilith, the daughter would say things like; “Mommy is so great. I love mommy. Mommy has five dogs! Five dogs!” 

 

 

      Lilith (Valley) would check over Her shoulder, to see if I was keeping up and how I was getting along with Her daughter. She was amusing Herself by idly looking at various baubles in the vendor stands, but She didn’t really seem to be truly interested in them. It seemed like she was there more-so to be ‘close’ to me, and ensure that I was remaining entertained. I, for my part, was more concerned about keeping Her daughter safe and secure as we walked from stall to stall, between the flashing neon rides and towards a food court. 

 

 

 

 

      I was back in the snowy little hamlet again, but no longer at the carnival/fair. I was inside an unfamiliar house. It had tall windows that peer outside to a snow-laden ground, the whiteness spreading far across the yard and streets and blanketing all the other homes around it, in the little neighborhood. Lilith was there, along with a handful of other people, who all seemed busy conversing and getting ready to leave somewhere.  I felt like I was supposed to be doing something…but couldn’t remember.

 

 

      I stepped outside into the backyard, which had a small alleyway that separated this house from a neighboring home. And I just took in a deep breath of cold winter breeze, felt the icy air fill my lungs. As I looked up into the thickly clouded sky, a young handsome man (he looked like a age 30’s version of Chris Hemsworth) with short dusty blond hair, cut into a quiff, came out of the neighboring home and waved me over. I walked into his backyard, apparently he had been waiting for me to show up. He greeted me with a friendly smile and I felt at peace in his company; continuing to follow him inside.

 

 

      Inside, he spoke with a very beautiful female (who I took to either be his partner, or his sister). She was quite tall (taller than the attractive male), with long wavy dusty blond hair with streaks of black interwoven throughout. She wore only a crop top loose t-shirt and a pair of pink panties printed with little yellow-colored fruits. She was coo’ing and talking to a baby that was playing in the kitchen beside the fridge. 

 

 

      The woman’s eyes sparkled when she saw me and she grinned widely, before turning her attention back to the infant. It was only after we made eye contact, that I noticed she then deliberately began to ‘adjust’ her panties by sliding her fingers around the elastic parts of her butt and abdomen, pulling them outward (loosening them). I suspect she knew that she was teasing me, but pretended that it was simply an unconscious action. 

 

 

      I moved into the kitchen and discovered that it was Lilith’s little infant daughter who was playing beside the fridge! Last I’d seen her, I was carrying her in my arms at the carnival (before I was awoken by the thunder). It seemed as though this couple? Brother & sister? Maybe a combination of both(?)… was watching the infant as ‘babysitters’ until someone picked her up. Almost as if; when I left from the carnival (after waking), new sitters were temporarily found, until I returned again?! It was a weird feeling… Like I had been ‘interrupted’ from caring for Her daughter, when I woke up… but the events/time (within the dreamscape) carried on without me. And now that I was back again (~and time has passed between~) …

 

 

      Now I was supposed to pick up where I left off? [ It was such a strange and uncanny feeling, because usually it’s “impossible” to enter back into the same dream. And yet, twice now (last evening and on July 2, 2025), I have done so within this snowy mountainous cabin/hamlet setting. Both times though, I felt that Lilith (appearing as Valley) was focal to the experience. So maybe She can facilitate such things? Seems likely. 

 

 

      I thanked them both and wrapped the baby blanket around her, scooping her up into my arms, planning to head back outside, across the alley and into the house where I had last sported Lilith.