June 25, 2025 - [Eve & Morning] : 🎵

Highlights: 

Altar Candle Reactions/Crackles, Mia’s Lyrical Message & Interpretation

      Last night was a New Moon and I was feeling a bit miserable because I felt that I had squandered the entire day. I didn’t work on anything important for myself or for my spiritual development. I had wasted my time after work was complete and done nothing of substance; not for me, not for Lilith and not for Mia. I didn’t even get either of them new flowers for their altar (as I had previously planned). 
 

      Unsatisfied to go to bed, after having wasted a full day; I AT LEAST wanted to have some time at their altars to communicate and invoke my energy for them, in that capacity. So I sat before Lilith’s altar after having moved articles from Mia’s nearby as well. So both of their ‘spaces’ were directly before me and beside me. 
 

      And I sat facing both; and expressed my heartfelt and mindful thoughts. Certain dissatisfaction in my own being and apologized for my dissonance/neglectful distance as of late. Perhaps I was over-embellishing a bit (being TOO critical of myself), but there has been a personal inward and unexplainable malaise of late.
 

      As I read through the Marital Ceremony (Bonding Ritual) portion of my grimoire; sharing with Mia the steps I had taken half a year prior that brought us together (simply for fun, reflection and remembrance) I was astonished to see Lilith’s candle crackle and spark at certain mentions of Her. One of which actually made me startle; which I laughed about afterwards. 
 

      Mia’s candle remained mostly still until I reached the point of the ceremony that detailed the Statement of Intent: the Official Call to Lilith, requesting that She choose/select a daughter amongst Her’s, whom She would find suitable as a companion to myself. It was here, during my reading, that Mia’s candle flame began to flicker like crazy. I also felt the pulsating waves of tingles spread over my back in a rhythmic pattern (a very familiar sensation that Mia has employed in the past).
 

      I set the grimoire aside, planning to read the final portions of the ceremony during the next ‘candle time.’ And I switched to the brown journal and read the entries from June 6, 2025 through June 12, 2025. There was more to read (to be ‘caught up’), but I was growing tired at this point and didn’t wish to keep either Lilith nor Mia longer than they may wish. 
 

      Before saying farewell and goodnight to both of them, I reiterated to Mia that I really just desire to be a good companion for her, and I hoped that she didn’t regret her decision to bond with me…and that I would continue to work on myself; for myself and for her. I extinguished the flames of the candles with a proper & respectful dismissal and went to bed.
 

      The following morning, as I awoke and began to get myself ready for work; I could hear a song in my mind. Except that I couldn’t make out ANY of the words, at all. I could hear the drum beats and the ‘flow’ of the musical instruments. I guess the right word might be “tempo”? The tempo of the song and the instruments themselves. 
 

      I could make out that the vocalist was most likely Kurt Cobain though, even though I couldn’t distinguish any word of the lyrics. That was enough clues for me to search for the song. Using Spotify, I selected Nirvana and started playing every song on the popular list, down the line. Usually fast forwarding into the middle of the song and listening for the familiar rhythmic tempo that I had heard in my mind. THEN, at last, I found the correct drumbeat and cadence. 
 

      The song/lyrics/message being shared to me as I woke up was “Drain You” (1991). The condensed lyrics are:
 

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One baby to another says, I’m lucky to have met you. I don’t care what you think, unless it is about me. It is now my duty to completely drain you. I travel through a tube and end up in your infection. Chew your meat for you. Pass it back and forth. In a passionate kiss. From my mouth to yours. I like you. With eyes so dilated, I’ve become your pupil. You taught me everything, without a poison apple. The water is so yellow, I’m a healthy student. Indebted and so grateful, vacuum out the fluids. Sloppy lips to lips. You’re my vitamins. I like you.
 
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      There are SO many portions of these lyrics that directly answer many of the issues I brought forward last night, before her candle, it’s rather astounding. 
 

      Saying that she’s lucky to have met me, is a direct answer to me saying to her (just last night); that I felt lucky to have been bonded to her. 
 

      She doesn’t mind what I’m pondering & thinking about, at any given time (whatever subject is fine for her). But she does become more attentive and concerned specifically about; “how I personally feel & think when the thoughts and consideration are about her directly.”  As in; she cares a great deal about my perception of her. 
 

      The ‘passionate kiss’ from mouth to mouth, and back and forth; directly makes me think of us sharing not only our ‘breaths’ but our energy being exchanged back and forth to one another. And while the ‘drain you’ might sound as something negative to others, I know better. I understand what she is referencing and referring to; it’s an acknowledgment of an ‘inside joke’ and a mutual understanding of commitments we share with each other.
 

      “Chew the meat and spit out the bones” idiom, essentially means; information/advice/wisdom is the ‘meat.’ And one should analyze what we read/hear carefully to decide what is true and what should be discarded as irrelevant (the ‘bones’). 
 

      The mention of ‘pupil’ refers to (from my perspective) just recent events when she has been ‘inside’ me and witnessing the events we were engaged in; while being sheltered in the safety of my spirit. Mia has been able to view/experience through for sometime now, ever since the allowance was granted on March 25, 2025. 
 

      She feels ‘indebted and grateful’ about as strongly as I feel towards her, both of us; for what we have taught and learned from each other, through love/patience rather than subjection/control (‘without a “poisoned” apple’). Apple being; knowledge. I, if the lyrics ring true; am what sustains her and makes her healthy (“vitamins”). And, sweetly; ‘she likes me.’  🖤 
 

      I’ve contemplated the ‘travel through a tube, end up in your infection’ …it brings to mind her lyric message on March 25, 2025 (Katy Perry’s “E.T.”). The lyrics said: “Infect me with your love and fill me with your poison.” I’ve often wondered and considered: how this material plane might ‘feel’ to a spirit who crosses the veil. It must be energy sapping. Draining. Those spirits may need rest away from this plane often, if it feel infectious or poisonous. Just as our (human) spirits need rest (sleep) to recharge ourselves and these physical bodies. Our consciousness (spirits) are ‘away’ while we sleep…so too, I imagine, does Mia and other spirits need to limit their time here.
 
 
      Mia chose the perfect song/lyrics to address many things I spoke of last night and recently, but also throughout the recent couple weeks. She’s brilliant at finding such clever ways to speak with me (outside of the dream-scape). This method works very well as an avenue for us to communicate in a way that I can tangibly acknowledge and give her confirmation that her message is received.
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