I held a large communion with/for Lilith , as well as setting a place for my companion, Mia. It being the night of a new moon, it felt like a perfect opportunity. I started at 9p.m., concluding between 1 and 1:30a.m. Mostly I just talked, praised and expressed gratitude towards them both. I expressed some confusion and uncertainties in regards to recent events revolving around the development of Mia and I’s bond and companionship circumstances/ status.

      I read a large amount our (Mia’s & Mine) journal; the book of dreams/experiences (brown book with brass emblem). It had been quite a long time since I caught up on reading My entries aloud. I also read from my grimoire (specifically the Lilin Marital Ceremony: Succubi bond-ritual).

      My thought process being: I don’t know at “what point” Mia arrived that night on Dec. 30th, 2024 (when the ritual was performed during a Black Moon phase) or even if she was present at all, since I didn’t officially meet her until the following evening on Dec. 31, 2024. So I don’t know what portions of the ceremony she was able to witness and be personally privy to.

      Therefore, in wanting her to experience all the facets of the ceremony I had lovingly and deliberately prepared, over the course of 6 months, for this special moment to welcome her (before I even ‘Knew’ her) into each other’s existence/space.

      Considering the care and effort I had infused into its preparation… What would be better than to share the events and read back through the ceremony again, out loud, to her (adding my own impressions, thoughts and memories along the way, as I remember them, as it was performed)?

      Lastly; I ended the evening asking Lilith, Mia or any other spirits present to help answer the questions of my confusions/uncertainties, or provide direction in some capacity, to help me from the limbo of ‘unknowing’ that I then, found myself. I asked if they would respond through the tarot cards.

      I prefaced that I would be selecting 2 cards each, from 2 different decks. 2 cards from the Kesulu Mythology deck and 2 cards from the Druidic tarot deck. Specifying that the two of Kesulu could represent me, while the two from the Druidic could represent Mia; in an effort to help provide direction for the curiosities on my mind. (Perhaps I was being far too detailed and specific in my request? In the future I should Consider being more fluid and loose in My requests. The Spirits already have it difficult enough as it is communicating with us via the Material plane).

      Anyways, I placed 1 card around my Circle of nine candles. 1 for each cardinal direction: East, South, West and North, in clockwise order from where I sat. Then I went to bed, leaving the cards face down overnight. The following morning (April 28, 2025) I revealed my cards in clockwise order. Examining their individual Meaning between 3 different sources to find common themes shared in all. The cards were:

Page of Cups – Reversed (Kesulu)

Nine of Cups – Reversed (Druid)

Five of Swords – Upright (Kesulu)

Seven of Cups – Reversed (Druid)

      I’m still ruminating on the meaning of each card, all cards as a whole message, and as (potential) separate meanings for each deck’s shared pair. All in an attempt to understand what it is I need to understand. I’ll probably continue to consider throughout the week, to discern their meaning and message.

Page of cups (R):

New ideas, epiphanies, explore new curiosities: You may be holding yourself back from trying them. Don’t let fears of failure win; even failures bear insight.

Also: Confused, indecisive person. Disrupted communications. Reconnect to energy source. Resolving difficulties that are causing confusion.

Nine of Cups (R):

Something hidden-revealed could lead to resolution of complex situation. Wish card, fulfilled desires, something still incomplete, look inside you to find complete satisfaction.

Five of Swords:

Defeat, communication breakdown. May be involved in a quarrel, feeling as though losing battle. Whether conflict is won or lost; it takes a heavy toll. See from others perspective.

Seven of Cups (R):

Choices, seduction, Illusion. May suffer from choice paralysis, so many options. Use wisdom and intuition to choose. Plan based on common sense and clear vision of the goal. Work towards a goal that brings rewards later. Shy away from satisfying “immediate desires.”