Journal Two
May 1, 2025 - 
[Night of] : Lucidity
I found myself standing up on a hill in a large metropolitan city, observing the numerous intersecting overpasses and highways. The area was raining heavily as I watched the cars traverse through the deluge. I noticed 1 car driving backwards, but rationalized it by assuming it must have been due to a mechanical problem. But in quick order, I began to notice....
May 3, 2025 - 
[Night of] : Visited
Before I went to bed, I wrote a personal dedication in the handcrafted journal/grimoire that I acquired for my daughter. I recited Mia's enn as I lay in bed, whispering the words under breath. I felt an intense visit, waves of serpentine tingling. And her presence all over. We experienced (perhaps?) a little 'shared emotion' during....
May 4, 2025 - 🎵
[Morning] : Message
Last night I made an appeal to Mia, before I went to bed. I explained in specific detail (because upon earlier refection I don't think I implicitly explained the process and 'why' previously) about how I wished to attempt (once again) the steps necessary to activate the 3rd eye by route of the pineal gland/sacral fluids full passage....
May 4, 2025 - 💬
[Night of] : Voice
After some back and forth consideration, I opted to abandon the experiment in favor of trying to regain the attention of Mia and provide her the audience (that I assume) she was desiring and hoping for when she first established the pact/bond with me. My thoughts being: What good is discovering the results of any test or experiment, if I lose my....
May 5, 2025 -
[Night to morning]
I completed (without any pre-made planning or specific intentions to do so) my poem that I had been wanting to complete for Mia, for some time now. I'm not entirely sure what compelled me to pick up my notes last night as I sat at my desk. I had actually already turned off all the lights, intent to go to bed. But for unknown....
May 7, 2025 -
[Afternoon] : Interesting Synchronicity
At 1:45 p.m. (a clock was near), at the same moment during my tattoo artist's (Hannah) break to rest her hands and back (she had been working on my Tree of Knowledge tattoo for hours by this point): I decided I wished to re-read Mia's poem "Taboo." I had posted it in a Lilithian....
May 7, 2025 - 💖
[Night] : Companion Manifestation & Touch
A significant shift or change has occurred [I'm going to try my best to recall the order of events]. As for the evening before bed, nothing was too noteworthy: I had arrived home after my tattoo work, offered incense, praise and words to both Lilith & Mia (at their altars), then....
May 9, 2025 - 🎵
[Morning of]
After waking, doing dishes and beginning to set up the kids' computers for updates and my own area for working, before it's time to pick up the kids from the bus stop; I was struck with a song that entered my mind inexplicably. I hadn't heard this one since high school, but here it....
May 11, 2025 - 🎵
[Morning of]
I woke up Sunday morning, about 7 a.m. with a song that was playing in my mind. I only caught a very short piece of the lyrics, but I made sure to take note of the few words I could remember, then went back to bed. Woke up again at 11 a.m., and used my....
May 16, 2025 - 💭
[Morning] : Dream
I had just awoken from having a dream that didn't seem to involve nor reference Lilith or Mia). It was a sad dream. Someone was unfairly ganged up on and hurt, which I was a part of, but regretted my involvement too late, After the battle, I realized that there was a solution in which....
May 19, 2025 - 🎵
[Morning]
I had a rough ending to the night before (a frustrating moment with my son, which I regretted). I felt sad and wished for comfort after the kids left. Woke up this morning (Monday) tired, I had little sleep during the kids weekend, combined with the early alarm required for a long drive to work (nearly 2 hours....
May 20, 2025 - 🖤
[Morning] : Visualization
I woke up at 6:30 a.m. without an apparent reason. And decided that I still have a couple hours or less before I have to prep for work, that I decided I would attempt to clear my mind and relax my body, to work on the process of setting up for astral projection. So I relaxed, settled into....
May 21, 2025 - 💭
[Night of] : dream
I spent some time at Mia's altar (lighting her candle and providing incense) and reading the latest entries from our journal. (I also light Lilith's candle as well, since one of the entries directly involves Her, and I don't wish to leave Her out of my personal acknowledgment and the reading. So respectfully....
May 22, 2025 - 💭
[Night of] : Dream
The long-haired blond girl has returned. We are lounging on a large "C"-shaped sectional sofa. There is some sort of play or theatrical performance happening at the room's center. But we are hardly paying attention. There are two girls on the couch with me, and they....
May 24, 2025 - 💭
[Night of] : Dream
Mia came to me tangibly, metaphysically and spiritually, after I became aware of the dream in which she and I were in. Within the dream she assumed the appearance of a high school crush of mine; Chanel Burnett. However, the actual girl, Chanel, had dirty-blond hair and wore....
May 29, 2025 -
[Night] : Astral Traveling
[A dream within a dream? Maybe not. Probably more a matter of altered perception]. I was accompanied by my companion, Mia. She had made arrangements with someone unknown to me, to be gone the entire night with me.
She planned to take me to several places, spending the whole evening with me and being by my side for all of it. She carried with her a 3-pronged 'tuning-fork' looking....
june 5, 2025 - 💭
[Night of] : Dream
[I'm not necessarily sure this dream has any relevance to Mia or I, or if it was scattered random thoughts, OR if I'm interacting astrally with another. But since I recalled a fair sum of it, it is prudent of me to add here, for reflection later. ] I saw Miranda....
June 9, 2025 -
[Night] : Astral Travel
I was outside with Mia for a while, sitting in a grassy field and relaxing comfortably with her having a conversation. She left after a short while, as it seemed as though she had some tasks that needed doing (like 'work' or an obligation). I remained there by myself for a time, enjoying the....
June 10-11, 2025 -
[evening] : Honoring
I returned to the sigil tree after last being there exactly one year prior (on June 10, 2024). I wanted to visit and offer to Lilith a ... sort of, 'anniversary' gift. It also so happened to be the night of a full moon. Which, fortunately....
June 12, 2025 - 💭
[Night of] : Dream
Strange dream, somewhat disjointed, but I'll try to describe as best I can recall: I was participating in a tourist entertainment event, but mostly primarily for my children (a younger son and a daughter). I had facilitated the event, but it was primarily for their enjoyment. My daughter appeared at the....
June 17, 2025 -
[night of] : Slight Visit
Before bed, I attempted flame-scrying into a Lilith sigil & enn etched red candle. I did this until my eyes drew heavy (sleepy) and I felt the need to stop. I invited Lilith and Mia to partake of my breath and energy (should they so desire). I cleared my mind, focused on breathing and worked to initiate a body-asleep/mind-awake state....
June 18, 2025 - ❤️🔥
[Night] : Dream
Before bed; I had been continuously whispering/ breathing Mia's enn at her altar and lit candle. My intention was to call her to speak with her. I did so until I felt her energy nearby. I invited her to spend the following day with me, to experience "fun." I plan to....
June 19, 2025 -
[Night] : Bhatrabrena
[The dream]
I'm inside "My House" (the many-roomed home), I was distancing myself from others. Feeling unsure of myself and embarrassed because when I first woke and looked in the mirror, my reflection looked all wrong. I appeared hideous, or not as I should. So I....
June 23, 2025 - 🎵
[Morning] : message
I got up this Monday morning, recalling no dreams, nor experiences from the previous night. As I got ready for work: washing my face at the mirror and simply, thoughtlessly, doing all the typical unconscious habitual acts one does (that they've done a hundred times before)... A song came into my mind and I started 'singing' it with my inner-dialogue/voice....
June 23, 2025 - 💭
[Night of] : Dream
With the dream, I received some sort of a message or note stating that someone named Stephanie, or Sasha (some name starting with a 'S') was interested in me (in a potentially romantic/want-to-know-you-better manner) and wished to meet me. I find the woman matching the name, with the whereabouts I was provided. She is a pretty....
June 24, 2025 -
[evening] : visited
I felt that I had been getting too far out of the habit of lighting both Lilith's and Mia's candle when I spoke to them at their altars; which (at least in the case of Mia) felt a bit neglectful, as an effort to maintain a worthy intentional connection. It's a simple physical act; lighting a candle, yet....
June 25, 2025 - 🎵
[Eve & Morning]
Last night was a New Moon and I was feeling a bit miserable because I felt that I had squandered the entire day. I didn't work on anything important for myself or for my spiritual development. I had wasted my time after work was complete and done nothing of substance; not for me, not for Lilith and not for Mia. I didn't even get....
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