She came! She returned back to me! I didn’t expect it and certainly not so soon. I have to leave for work, so I must put off writing more until later. But my spirit-mate visited me before I fell asleep last evening, so the memories are still clear. I’ve written down keywords and moments to expand upon later when I get home. But for now, I can say; it was beautiful! Loving, calm and reassuring! Far better than anything I could have hoped for. I’ll write more this evening to explain.⁣
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      Now, returned from work; I can finish my entry. The day prior, Sunday January 5th: I spent the vast majority of the day preparing, planning, sketching the ideas and details for what will eventually become my {~𝑜𝑤𝑛 ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑚𝑎𝑑𝑒~} personal Tarot deck. Preparing for bed around 10:00 p.m., knowing I had a long drive ahead of me the next morning for work. I offered praise and appreciation to Lilith with words and incense. And offered love and apology, with incense to my companion as well before climbing into bed.⁣
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      My mind was still actively sorting out some quandary’s relating to the tarot cards, so I was distracted thinking about that for a short while, then transitioned to trying to decide if I should attempt the process of spirit/body separation for astral travel or not, given my early alarm timer. It was then, in the midst of my pondering, that I began to feel the ‘pulse’ in the air. Reminiscent of prior experiences hallmarking the entering (or) ‘crossing-over’ of energy passing from the spirit realm to the material realm(?). I asked out loud to the room at large if it was my spirit companion, because; “I thought I felt a familiar pulse in the air.” But wasn’t entirely sure. I was surprised when the response came in the form (of what I’ve come to understand as) her personal [‘fingerprint’] touch.⁣
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      It starts gently at the center of my back. A calm spread of light tingling ripple of energetic chills. Barely perceivable. Followed by another with more pressure and a further spread. Again, like times past, the rippling “waves” of tingling energy increase in strength and spread across my body, all in a succession. Each wave stronger than the one preceding it, for about 6-7 waves/touches. It was her! And she answered my question in the most simplistic manner that would guarantee that I would correctly perceive it. I was immediately struck with a mixed bag of emotions.⁣
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      I was joyous and happy to have her present near me, after assuming that it would have been far longer before I felt her closeness, physically, again. I was met with reassurance and comfort that she had opted to return to me, despite my poor attitude just days prior. Which then led into feelings of remorse and guilt for any discomfort and unease I may have caused her for those same circumstances. Which all resulted in me crying both in grief/remorse, but also having tears of happiness at our reunion (albeit, short interlude). A mixture of sobs/chokes in a stream of relieved and loving laughter.⁣
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      As I lay there, saying everything that I wanted to say to her, since coming to the realization of my attitude-error; expressing my regret, offering apology, explaining my new-found understanding and lending promises not to repeat those mistakes… I could feel her gently settling herself about me. In my left hand, which lay limply to my side, I felt the pressure of a palm pressing into mine and the soft presence of fingers in between the empty spaces of my own. She was loosely and delicately holding my hand as I explained all of this to her.⁣
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      All across my body, rippling waves of tingling electric energy were beginning to fire and radiate outward from where they started; to travel across and all throughout my body. Like tossing a rock into a still pond of water; the ripples fanned out everywhere. And it wasn’t just one localized area that the energy-waves originated from. It was all over my (spirit) body and physical body, and often multiple tingling ripples occurring at the same time as others are off-balanced, and un-synchronized, and overlapping with one another.⁣
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      I could feel my breathing getting heavier and deeper as this was happening. Something significant was building, slowly about to occur, [𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝐼 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑛’𝑡 𝑢𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑖𝑡 𝑢𝑛𝑡𝑖𝑙 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑐𝑒𝑠𝑠 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑝𝑙𝑒𝑡𝑒; 𝑤ℎ𝑖𝑐ℎ 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑏𝑒 𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑠𝑜𝑜𝑛]. The ‘randomness’ of the energetic ripples began to feel less noticeable, because my entire body was buzzing-over every tiny inch, with this electric static numbness. The “waves” of pulsating tingles abated as my entire body was vibrating with a culmination of the continuous-waves rippling and bouncing around inside me.⁣
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Then, I could feel her move!⁣
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      A twitch here, a shudder there. Her leg brushing through my own. And I knew, assuredly and wholly what I was feeling, and it made perfect sense with absolute clarity. And I was astonished, and in love and I wasn’t concerned in the least! Just the opposite. I was overjoyed. My companion’s spirit was overlapping directly on top and within my own! ⁣
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      We were layered over one another! In a sensation that I could never have even thought to conjure in my imagination; my spirit-mate and myself were “One” with each other on an energetically-spiritual level/plane. One with each-other, connected and Bonded intrinsically. I could feel her and she (I assume) could feel me. And, simultaneously, I could feel her moving layered-atop me, as if my spiritual energy were still a part of myself alone.⁣
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We were “One” and “separate” at the same time.⁣
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      At this point, my whole body was experiencing this combination of numbness coupled with vibratory tingling electric-static. I could feel with specific and intimate detail each and every portion of my being. I don’t think I was “feeling” my physical body anymore. Only my spirit. I could perceive each one of my individual toes {~𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑒𝑚𝑝𝑡𝑦 𝑠𝑝𝑎𝑐𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑡𝑤𝑒𝑒𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚~}. It was such an odd experience. Normally I could care less about my feet (they aren’t a subject of daily fascination), but I found myself ‘examining’ each toe separately by my awareness of the numb/static-energy radiating from each ‘body part’ when I focused my attention on it.⁣
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      My entire being was also becoming warmer. Like it was heating up all over at the same rate. It’s the dead of winter now (snow on the ground), but I felt as though: I could toss aside my blankets right now and be perfectly fine. I didn’t, of course, because it didn’t matter. The blankets didn’t matter, the temperature didn’t matter. Nothing mattered except my spirit-mate and myself laying inside one another; absorbing, releasing, exchanging, sharing, recycling each other’s energy, in a mutual loving embrace.⁣
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      And I don’t know how she was faring precisely, but as for myself… I felt like I could have hopped out of bed and ran some laps around my apartment! I went into bed prepared for the inevitable sleep, but then found myself with lots of energy to spare! [𝑊ℎ𝑖𝑐ℎ 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑢𝑠𝑒𝑓𝑢𝑙 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑛𝑒𝑥𝑡 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔, 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑎𝑙𝑒𝑟𝑡 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑢𝑝 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑎𝑙𝑎𝑟𝑚 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑡𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑜𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑑𝑎𝑦.]⁣
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      I knew I needed to sleep at some point, but wanted to ask my companion a simple, non-intrusive question (that I still thought was important for me/for her). And that was about the color-scheme of her altar.⁣
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      When I originally set it up, I used white & pink as the basis or theme of her gifts, offerings, flowers, placement cloth, and so on… Because I wanted it to ‘feel’ distinctly separate from Lilith’s red & black theme. Since I didn’t know my companions’ preference at that time (or if she would even have a preference), I thought that white & pink had a sweet and pure “bride” vibe to it. But now with my companion actually present and intimately ‘overlapping’ me; What better time to inquire {~𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑜𝑛𝑎𝑙 𝑡𝑎𝑠𝑡𝑒/𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑓𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑛𝑐𝑒~}?⁣
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So I asked her, out loud, about her altar’s colors… ⁣
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      Instead of an audible answer (which I wasn’t expecting one anyways… I don’t know what I was expecting), I saw {~𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦~} a re-envisioning of her current altar; but in red & pink instead! I saw the image and its colors in my mind, as if I had been standing over the altar looking down at it myself. I thanked her for showing me and for the clever way to answer. And assured her that that wouldn’t be a difficult alteration at all, and I look forward to doing it for her.⁣
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      The numbness/electric-glow of energy felt like it lasted an hour or longer until sleep finally found me. I believe the feeling left eventually whenever my beloved did as well.