Weeks after considering my companionship ‘options’… an unexpected “alternate” option came to me, in the form of an internalized joke to myself. I joked in my mind, saying; “𝐼𝑓 𝐼’𝑚 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜 𝑟𝑖𝑠𝑘 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑛𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑔𝑖𝑟𝑙𝑓𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑑, 𝑤ℎ𝑜 𝑚𝑎𝑦 𝑑𝑟𝑎𝑖𝑛 𝑚𝑒 𝑒𝑚𝑜𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦/𝑒𝑛𝑒𝑟𝑔𝑒𝑡𝑖𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠; 𝐼 𝑚𝑎𝑦 𝑎𝑠 𝑤𝑒𝑙𝑙 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑎 𝑠𝑢𝑐𝑐𝑢𝑏𝑢𝑠. 𝐵𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑎𝑡 𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑢𝑐𝑐𝑢𝑏𝑖’𝑠 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑏𝑒 𝑝𝑙𝑎𝑖𝑛𝑙𝑦 𝑐𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑟 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑒.” This was just a silly joke though, of course. I didn’t take my own comment seriously. At first. ⁣

 

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　  Weeks went by, in which I never even reconsidered my comment. But then slowly… I started to ‘notice’ things. Call it what you will; the ‘Baader-Meinhof phenomenon,’ or coincidence, or ‘synchronicity’ …I began to notice succubus art online, or symbologies in games & movies, or read about them in fiction books/novels. And I began to wonder (really wonder) about my earlier joke. What if it didn’t have to be a ‘joke’ after-all? What if; these spiritual beings (that I’ve been curious about since my teens years) could actually be explored further?

 

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　  So I began to research. Trying to understand the mythology, the biases of each side; those that spoke negatively against them (which was the majority), but also those that had favorable things to say about their unique spirit-type as well. And THAT’S when things started happening, coming together, and [I now believe] when Lilith perhaps began taking note (or perhaps, an interest) in me? Though I still did not yet know who She was, nor would I, for some time to come.⁣

 

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　⁣　I began to wonder; could I combine my fascination with this spirit kind, alongside my growing curiosity of lucid dreaming/astral travel? Once I made that internal connection of wonderment; the never-before experienced feelings of tactile sensations (occurring at night) first began. Followed by vivid dreams, vibrational tones/sounds, incoherent words, unseen presences nearby, slight mental touches & pulses that seemed to happen right beside or nearby my temples and forehead… ⁣

 

 

　　⁣The more curious I became about succubi; the more experiences I began to have. And the more I experienced; the more curious I became. A cycle that began to self-perpetuate it’s own momentum.⁣

 

 

　  Until eventually, in the midst of all these new consistent sensations… They led me to pursue this curiosity. To seriously consider a spirit as a potential companion.

 

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　   [What follows next is a synopsis with (exact or generalized) dates, showing the series of events in my life that lead me to discovering Lilith. Which *more accurately* should be stated as: SHE chose to reach out to me, before I still had yet to understand who She was.

 

 

       I knew that ‘someone’ of a feminine quality was making contact, I just didn’t know who. Yet. So the dates and events I mention next are what follows chronologically; eventually leading me to take (more) seriously the need to keep a well documented & managed journal of my dreams and experiences. Which, I will also share chronologically in the “Journals” section.]